Lori

Date posted: 5y

Hey everyone!Im new to this app.I dont really know if I have OCD.My intrusive thoughts r driving me mad.I cant handle them anymore.The problem is that sometimes my thoughts turn into beliefs.Is like a part of me refuses to believe them and another part keeps believing them even tho I know they r not true.I dont know if these are false sensations or if the thoughts define me as a person.I dont want to be a bad person,I dont want to think anymore,I dont want to create false believs,i just want to be normal again.Im done with this.Its like u dont want to be gay,but ur mind creates the belief that u r gay and then u kinda feel the attraction towards the same gender.I dont know if this is a false attraction,i dont know who i am anymore.Its like is hitting me by making me be the person I dont want to be.Is there anyone else feeling like this?Please I just want an advice cause sometimes the only thing that comes to my mind is suicide.My parents do not understand me.Im exhausted...

CoreyC

Date posted: 5y

Back in November 2019 this put me in a really bad hole.. I had lost someone super close at a super young age to reasons I’m not going to get into.. very traumatic and I had a panic attack - shortly after I was having weird thoughts that I didn’t want to have.. I really couldn’t figure out why and they scared the shit out of me.. we are talking weeks to a month here..then boom I somehow figured out these are intrusive thoughts and a form of anxiety/ocd.. so my moral here is... this is perfectly normal and yes it sounds like intrusive thoughts.. the goal is to not seek reassurance.. trust me it feels great at the moment but you will come back and want more and more.. it’s a viscous cycle.. be good to yourself, you are not alone.

Lori

Date posted: 5y

Im sorry for ur loss.Thank u for the advice.?

holley

Date posted: 5y

yes i get it!

Lori

Date posted: 5y

Really?I thought I was the only one feeling like this.Thanks.

holley

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii of course. i just watched two girls kiss and it made me cry :(

Lori

Date posted: 5y

@holley I totally understand u.I never felt gay.Actually everytime I thought abt being gay the thought sounded ridiculous.Now is like my mind is getting used to the thought,I dont know why but ik really tired of this.

Lori

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii Im**

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

I felt a lot of what you said

Lori

Date posted: 5y

I understand.I hope we get trough this.For me is getting harder everyday.?

Makki23

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii I'm sorry? you're not alone

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

Hi Lorii, welcome ? even though your parents don't understand, they may still be willing to find you professional support. Is that a conversation you've had with them?

Lori

Date posted: 5y

Yes,i had a conversation with them.I guess they do not understand because OCD is something pretty rare in ny country(because of the low population).Still tho they consider this my fault because I use the phone too much.

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii I see. You're in an area without many resources. That's too bad. Maybe you can get a workbook. Here's one written specifically for teens that I've heard is excellent https://www.googleadservices.com/pagead/aclk?sa=L&ai=DChcSEwjiuY_QuvDqAhUD7bUKHXdVCx0YABAHGgJxbg&ae=1&ohost=www.google.com&cid=CAESQeD2qmOTRIUQYK-XZpPQPe_X8wnhZTRoOxitFvX4TrPS8t6TuHZGR-0LwtTgrZ_PKpKYfRbeK6twxdhO_tdxb0-2&sig=AOD64_070pjT4ACksne4t3AlNr5Lg4i_DQ&ctype=5&q=&ved=2ahUKEwihtYbQuvDqAhXSknIEHauIAqgQwg96BAgVEBs&adurl=http://play.google.com/store/books/details%3Fid%3D7z-hDwAAQBAJ%26gl%3Dus%26hl%3Den-US%26source%3Dproductsearch%26utm_source%3DHA_Desktop_US%26utm_medium%3DSEM%26utm_campaign%3DPLA%26pcampaignid%3DMKTAD0930BO1%26gclid%3DCjwKCAjwmf_4BRABEiwAGhDfSXWpCI_iL03T2KB-WPAci5RMy-Oo4H2KV50h_7yM517ObeUjTg1jGRoClfcQAvD_BwE

Lori

Date posted: 5y

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Thank u.I will try.?

Lori

Date posted: 5y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Lorii, your last post got deleted, and I'm sorry if I'm intruding your personal space, but I would like to know how you are doing.

Lori

Date posted: 5y

Im fine.Thank a lot for ur support.It means a lot to me?

Lori

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii Thanks*

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Lorii No worries ? I'm really happy to hear that you are fine! But if you still need to talk to someone, we are all here for you!

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