!!!!!PLEASE RESPOND!!!! TW FOR HOCD!!!!*** So I know theres truth to my theme. I know I have a sexual response to girls. I don't like it makes me anxious and upset, BUT I also experience extreme OCD symptoms at the same time. I feel like I have to solve everything in one day, and break up with my boyfriend, it constantly makes me think that I shouldn't be in my relationship anymore. I'm upset and scared by the fact that I no longer find boys attractive or don't right now, or when I think I do I get worried that it's just aesthetic attraction which I think is true. I feel like at this point I should try being with a girl, but it makes me so stressed out and upset that I can't, it makes me miss my boyfriend when I think about it even if he's right next to me. I'm so contradicted. I left my boyfriends house today where I've been living because I felt terrible and went back to my parent's but now I'm just crying and I can't stop. I'm sad that I want to be with a girl now, but I do. Please help. I cant lie anymore. I'm horrified by the idea of lying which I've realize has also been taken over by OCD. My biggest fear is that I'm going to make a big decision before I get help for OCD and then realize that all of this was OCD and not reality. I'm not equipt to handle any of these things. I dont know what to do so I've been blocking everything. Or maybe I have the fear that I'm blocking something and I'm not really? I'm scared that I'm lying about all of this.