- Date posted
- 5y
- Date posted
- 5y
I completely understand this. I don’t really have specific advice but just letting you know I’m going through the exact same thing. My strategy at this point has been to label them as OCD thoughts - I will certainly let you know if I come up with something more effective.
- Date posted
- 5y
Glad to know not alone - it’s just hard to try to do erp or anything when not afraid of something dangerous ??♂️..
- Date posted
- 5y
Well, sounds like suicide OCD, but tbh the "classifications" we use aren't a clinical thing anyway, they're not distinct, they're all OCD, and they're all treated the same way as any other OCD. Honestly, as much as you want to remind yourself of all the reasons you want to live and don't want to die, that's pretty much just the kind of resistance which reinforces the threat level you feel from the intrusive thoughts. I don't have OCD about this, because when I (quite often btw) think or say to myself "kill yourself" (intrusive thoughts I suppose), I don't take it very seriously: I don't wonder why I thought it, I know people think weird things a lot and even if it's only me that thinks this stuff.... Well, never mind. You're not going to kill yourself without making a conscious decision to do it. If you're unlikely to do that, because you enjoy being alive, then that's just the way it is, OCD or no OCD. The only thing the OCD does is to give you a big layer of stress. I guess for you it goes intrusive thought -> adrenaline -> what if this means something? Best tip is the same as for every OCD out there: let yourself be adrenalised. You can survive being adrenalised. It goes away. Don't follow the urges to analyse, question or argue against the idea of "this might mean that I want to kill myself". You don't need to know.
- Date posted
- 5y
Hi! Suicidal OCD is usually the same classification as Harm OCD, but OCD varies between everyone! Maybe a script would be a great way to practice ERP! You can start small- write out some statements/imagined scenarios that trigger minor anxiety & repeat them or listen to them until the anxiety lessens, then work your way up to a more triggering script. I hope that helps!!
- Date posted
- 5y
Awesome thank you! This is exactly what I was looking for.. appreciate it
Related posts
- Date posted
- 25w
Basically long story short, ive been dealing with anxiety for a very long time all my life I'm 23 now but about 5 months ago my anxiety started to get really and I overthink a ton and get worried to easily. So my chest hurt for a while from stress at work made me worry why it was hurting, then me worrying and thinking worse case scenarios was making it worse. So i and to go to the doctor and got diagnosed properly with anxiety and I have a med now that I take when I really need it called hydroxyzine but I also have another med that is Zoloft that I have been taking for a about a month now, to help with my intrusive thoughts I have sometimes i only get them when im stressed or when I'm by myself or when i just overthink in general, my loneliness depression is one of the reasons for my anxiety because I wish I had someone as in partner wise to love me and for me to love them. But anyways I've had intrusive thoughts about possibly hurting myself and family, or even my dog. Ive never acted on any of my thoughts in the past and I don't want to but I have had anxiety attacks when everything feels to real and really scares me. I constantly have the thought of am I crazy or am I becoming crazy and stuff and I've done a lot of looking stuff in the past about symptoms but most of them are identical to what anxiety is so it's hard to tell the difference. It's been probably 2 weeks since we last talked. I've been mostly doing good. But I just was wondering if had a little Harm OCD intrusive thought happen yesterday that targeted my Aunt at work she was complaining all day and when it got closer to the end of the shifts for us. I was already annoyed with a situation that happened earlier in the work day. But she came into my department and then went back over to hers and I said it out loud to myself and said you better get back over there or I'll, I tried to say something else because the word I was going to say was kill you. Obviously I don't but that's what my intrusive thought wanted me to say. And made me think thats why i got to hurt her to stop her complaing So the rest of the night I was saying she is safe I am safe I'm control, like this is just anxiety lying to you, it's just because I'm tired and got annoyed earlier. I can't tell if it was working or not because I was so tired and just wanted to go home. But after work her and I spent time together at our house she was on the one couch and I was on the other with a bunch of our dogs in the living room. I tried to keep my mind off of what happened, and I was fighting some stomach achyness already. But I obviously don't want to hurt her and we had conversations just fine. But I went to my other aunt house at night after work to go to bed because she has to watch my aunts dogs because my other aunt and family is on vacation. But anyways I'm trying to get over that word Kill, that word is what is scarring me and sticking. Like my anxiety is lying saying kill, or basically do harm. I don't want to do anything bad but I'm trying to shake that feeling and stickiness of that word. I'm just so scared and worried.
- Date posted
- 17w
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
- Date posted
- 10w
I'm new to NOCD and have been dealing with harm/suicidal, and Pure OCD for some time now. It started off being healthy related anxiety that led to compulsion where I would research information on an uncommon illness or something I thought I had. Now it has snowballed into intrusive thoughts and images of me killing myself in various ways or my wife. The former is what has been the most debilitating and hardest to shake. Recently I seem to find triggers almost every where I look. "What if I killed myself this way" if I see a kitchen knife or a bottle of pills. A friend talked about going to a gun range a while back and an image popped up of me being there and turning a gun to myself which is something I dont want to do. I love life and its so painful to go through thoughts that try to tell me otherwise. That particular image/thought has really stuck with me. I know about ERP and my therapist said I could rip the bandaid off and go to a gun range but it terrifies me. I don't own any weapons but I often think, "what if I buy one and im actually suicidal?" Just typing it makes me anxious. I'm wanting to start a low dose of Prozac which opens up another can of worms about worried my "overdose thought" will come true, on top of potential side effects. This is long winded but im looking for any advice to get through this. I know others are worse off than me but considering I've never been like this and it only started 6 months ago, I'm really struggling. Thanks everyone.
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond