Just a quick anxiety episode: I just posted some hw for a psychology class and I think I did a pretty good job. Its been 5 yrs of college and I know my brain is burned out at this time & my expression has been okay at most. I dont ever care about 'likes' or replies but i looked to see how many people commented on my assignment. None. I posted my hw earlier & we all have to reply to 2 others in the class. Then i look over at another student's work and its nicely formated & neat. 4 replies. Suddenly, this anxiety kicks in....her's is better than mine......im not enough....my work is not enough......im not enough.....I know for SURE how to become a better writer. I know how to better my abilities, I know how they've included examples and the text and I know im stressed with finals but this feeling under my rib cage is soft but there. I think, just deep down inside.....whwn faced with my best or 90%, somehow, someway, i dont ever feel adequate.

Thank you very much. Its in November

It’s also possible that yours was better, and therefore the other student’s was easier to respond to due to its simplicity or relevance to their level of knowledge. Of course do not over attach to that idea, but it’s very helpful to acknowledge that there are likely possibilities you aren’t thinking about, and therefore let in the possibility into your head that everything might just be okay, even if it is hard to accept

Ever read either of the books by Brene Brown, "Daring Greatly" or "The Joys of Imperfection"? I think you would benefit from its wisdom on never feeling like you are enough.

No I haven't....whats the main premise of it? Idk.....i think if i would've found the book to help me through all my issues i would have memoruzed it by now.

I've had this experience in my classes too. It's really frustrating and can trigger insecurity to bubble up to the surface Something to consider: if the person posted their assignment before you, they've had more time to get responses. Also, many people write their replies at the same time they post their assignment. That means that if you submitted yours after most of the class (and there's NOTHING wrong with that), most other people may have already written their replies.

There is some truth to that. I see that as a possibility for my situation. But I know, no matter what I think I can do, its just not perfect. I know its impossible but this is just a hard time wrestling with my insecurity and needing to be way past the lines of fault.

Story of my life. I just.....need to talk with someone I trust, someone who can help me through this esteem....but thats more money money money and the free counseling at school is just okay. I used to have tools to help me through. Now, they're not what they were

A counselor that moved and physical friends within my reach. There is always texting though

.....positive thoughts are hard to believe at this second, telling myself that its better doesn't quite work. I'm not sure

That helps confidence? ....im nottt sure...

Thank you, I'll look into this....it can definitely help to learn more. I know its just hard to deal with this stuff and be sane at the same time

Oh man, this is one of the pitfalls of online school that feels like getting picked on teams for gym class all over again. Studying psychology and science means you know that this is correlation; the number of classmates choosing to respond to your entry has no causation to you grade. You got this!!!