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Welcome ? Honestly, I'd go back to therapy. Your mom's chemotherapy is important. Your OCD treatment is important. Neither cancels out the other. In fact, you'll likely be better able to support your mom if your mental health improves. Getting well is a gift to yourself and to your loved ones
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But the other thing is that my psychiatrist said that my OCD is not that bad she said— Which I totally agree with it since I have no visible compulsions but just the annoying intrusive thoughts questioning and scaring me
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@Jobodol "not that bad" doesn't mean "not worth treating". Treatment is more effective when OCD is less severe. There no reason to wait for it to get terrible before starting to heal
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie The sad part is that it is slowly getting terrible as time passes. I think my Harm ocd is slowly turning into a new theme where do I have intentions revolving around my thoughts which it is stressing me out on my morality
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@Jobodol How would your life be different if your OCD vanished?
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie Pretty different I suppose, but I get times where I feel I don't have OCD thoughts and there are times the anxiety kicking in hard.
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@Jobodol Feelings and thoughts come and go. That's expected. What actions would you do differently?
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie I am not sure what action I would do to try and solve it Maybe exercise?
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@Jobodol Trying to get rid of u wanted thoughts and feelings is the central problem in OCD. Recovery is all about getting good at having thoughts and feelings and acting effectively anyways (aka, not doing compulsions)
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie I have no physical compulsions but mental compulsions So the central action here is to face the thoughts till you are okay with it?
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@Jobodol Yep
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie Also, every question your mind tells you like: "are you even gonna do it?" which it is still a harm OCD thought righty?, like it is literally questioning me whether I should do it or not which it gives me fear All of the mental images are okay with me now, I got used to it
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@Jobodol If the thought is spontaneous, creates distress, and triggers urge to do compulsions, then it is part of the OCD cycle
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie It is somehow spontaneous, giving me distress and tension. Trying NOT to cancel the thought by arguing with it I guess my Harm ocd took a new form through questions now
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I am 16 and struggling with OCD. It is causing me to do irrational things that I wouldn't normally do and cause issues with my parents. I feel like a terrible person and want to take back things that have happen and don't know how to make it better. The OCD causes things to get stuck in my brain and my questions have to be answered and talked about. I don't know how to let thoughts go and ways that would be healthy for myself and my parent when this happens. Any advice?
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well! I lost my dad yesterday and me having ocd since I was 7, it just skyrocketed. Yesterday it was difficult for sure, but I didn’t have any intrusive thoughts about self harm. It all happened suddenly when I was half asleep (trying to sleep even though it was really hard), were I feel as if a switch turned on in my brain and out of nowhere I started feeling angry. I recognised at that moment that I was not angry but that’s what my brain was telling me. And that’s when I had an intrusive thought of harming my mom came to my mind and immediately after that came the thought of harming myself. And it stuck. I know grief can make these themes pop up, but what if this is all real and not ocd? I’m scared. I acknowledge I don’t have thoughts in my head of planning to harm myself, it’s just a feeling that this is going to happen. Now letting my thoughts out brings me relief, even sometimes this intrusive thoughts bring me relief (that is very scary), but ocd makes me so pessimistic, and that I’m doomed in life and the sad life my dad had will also be mine as well. There are moments where I feel hope and relief, but it doesn’t last for long. As if I’m so so sure that this is going to happen. And me having magical thinking ocd doesn’t help either. Grief is hard, sometimes I cry, other times I laugh with my friends and family, but those moments I laugh is when I get terrified ( I read people who have made up the decision to (you know) are happy and laugh. Anyways, I’ve talked to my mom about it, she’s super supportive of me restarting therapy and even though she’s struggling with grief, she’s always there to listen to me and give me all the comfort I need. But I informed her about the thoughts the moment the popped up. Just so that she knows and can save me because I don’t trust myself at all. Sorry for this huge rumble, but I’d really appreciate your advice. I’m scared and so not ready to start therapy (at one hand I don’t want to, it feels such a chore, but I know I need to get help). I’m very pessimistic at the moment and I feel no one can convince me that I’ll get better. I think my future life, and it brings me this warm nice feeling and then it is followed by the thought that this will never happen. And because I have magical thinking ocd, and my uni exams have just started, I had this feeling that this exam season will be endless and it’s never going to end. Guess what, I’m probably going to just take one exam out of three (my mind is like you see, this thought and feeling came true) and that’s where I get super pessimistic. Okay, I’ll shut up for now, please give me some advice on how you try to manage your thoughts and what to do for now. Take care ❤️
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