Hello there, I was diagnosed with half OCD and OCPD by my psychiatrist last month but I've been experiencing intrusive thoughts for 4-5 months since quarantine started. Back then before I was diagnosed, every single week the theme of my intrusive thoughts kept changing to the point I am stuck with Harmful violent thoughts. Since I was diagnosed, I took two medications for 10 days but it helped me for a short while till I decided not to continue my second therapy session because my mother's chemotherapy matters more than my OCD (which my mother's condition matters more) Now I kept having loops of unwanted thoughts about my morality of doing good or bad, and having lots of anxiety tension/pain from my back, making me feel uncomfortable almost everyday but I tend to let it pass through. Any advice?

But the other thing is that my psychiatrist said that my OCD is not that bad she said— Which I totally agree with it since I have no visible compulsions but just the annoying intrusive thoughts questioning and scaring me

@Jobodol "not that bad" doesn't mean "not worth treating". Treatment is more effective when OCD is less severe. There no reason to wait for it to get terrible before starting to heal

@NOCD Advocate - Katie The sad part is that it is slowly getting terrible as time passes. I think my Harm ocd is slowly turning into a new theme where do I have intentions revolving around my thoughts which it is stressing me out on my morality

@Jobodol How would your life be different if your OCD vanished?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Pretty different I suppose, but I get times where I feel I don't have OCD thoughts and there are times the anxiety kicking in hard.

@Jobodol Feelings and thoughts come and go. That's expected. What actions would you do differently?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I am not sure what action I would do to try and solve it Maybe exercise?

@Jobodol Trying to get rid of u wanted thoughts and feelings is the central problem in OCD. Recovery is all about getting good at having thoughts and feelings and acting effectively anyways (aka, not doing compulsions)

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I have no physical compulsions but mental compulsions So the central action here is to face the thoughts till you are okay with it?

@Jobodol Yep

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Also, every question your mind tells you like: "are you even gonna do it?" which it is still a harm OCD thought righty?, like it is literally questioning me whether I should do it or not which it gives me fear All of the mental images are okay with me now, I got used to it

@Jobodol If the thought is spontaneous, creates distress, and triggers urge to do compulsions, then it is part of the OCD cycle

@NOCD Advocate - Katie It is somehow spontaneous, giving me distress and tension. Trying NOT to cancel the thought by arguing with it I guess my Harm ocd took a new form through questions now