Hey guys,i wanted to share something.I am fourteen years old,and my entire life i have been liking guys.Four months ago,i started having this obsession that i might harm myself,so i was never alone,because i was afraid i might do smth that would put myself in danger.When this obsession was over,i was afraid i might do smth to my parents,and after that i had the fear that i might hurt little children,like i might rape them,thats why everytime my little niece and nephew came here i distanced myself.As u can see,my every obsession was kinda connected to each-other.The thought that i may abuse a child(including both genders)brought me the thought that i might be gay.Im still suffering from this thought and less from the others.Yesterday i saw a video which said that im in denial.I think so,because yes god damn it i kinda enjoy the thought of being gay and i hate it.Do u think this is normal?One part of my mind has enjoyed my whole obsessions but with being gay,its different its scarier to me.

YesYou

Date posted: 5y

Take a step back and just breathe a little.. I know it seems like everything is chaotic and crazy but it's all going to be ok you're in the right hands we are here to help

Lori

Date posted: 5y

Thanks!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Maybe you are gay, maybe you aren’t. Maybe it’s hocd, maybe it isn’t. Use Erp stratagies to challenge these thoughts. It’s normal and ok to question sexuality at this age, you don’t have to figure it out right now, even if ocd says you do. I can tell you that you will be able to live a happy fulfilling life whatever your sexuality, but also that ocd definitely is not the way to figure it out. Ocd will never let you have an answer you are happy with.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Btw this isn’t meant to scare you or tell you you are or aren’t any particular sexuality, just that in ocd, you have to accept that it’s possible in order to move on.

Lori

Date posted: 5y

@Nikki1809 I understand,thanks a lot for the advice!??

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Lori No problem. :)

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