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Yes, not family but I always have thoughts like "what if I end up marrying one?" "What if that person I admire is one?" I get thoughts like that and they're disturbing.
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oh yeah that makes sense! the unknown is always so terrifying, i hope it gets easier for us both
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Me too!
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That is super common! Not just with your theme, but with many others too. For example, people with sexual orientation OCD will fixate on the sexual orientation of others. People with gender identity OCD will fixate on the gender of others. People with religious OCD will fixate on the goodness/morality of others. People with relationship OCD will fixate on others relationships. Whatever it is we’re obsessing about tends to get projected onto others. And that makes sense because a major mental compulsion for themes like this is to compare ourselves to others obsessively. And to scrutinize every little detail, even when those details don’t make sense (people with sexual orientation ocd will often spend a lot of time trying to figure out if they or others “seem” gay/straight based on how they talk, walk, stand, dress, etc.)
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oh that makes sense!!!
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Me too! I'm not a csa survivor, but I still get terrified when I'm around anyone older than me. I guess I just find p*dos so terrifying that if one were in the same vicinity as me I think I'd have a panic attack and pass out. I'm constantly wondering "are they one? Are they gonna look at me or my baby sister?" Or "are they secretly a horrible person?" And yes, this goes for family too. I understand a bit.
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oh i get the sister thing, im always terrified for my little sisters around uncles or older men even when that havent shown any reason for me to obsessively be worried. i guess there is a healthy level of worry that should exist as a protective measure but when its like this in my head i know i need to try to work on it
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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