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Yes, not family but I always have thoughts like "what if I end up marrying one?" "What if that person I admire is one?" I get thoughts like that and they're disturbing.
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oh yeah that makes sense! the unknown is always so terrifying, i hope it gets easier for us both
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Me too!
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That is super common! Not just with your theme, but with many others too. For example, people with sexual orientation OCD will fixate on the sexual orientation of others. People with gender identity OCD will fixate on the gender of others. People with religious OCD will fixate on the goodness/morality of others. People with relationship OCD will fixate on others relationships. Whatever it is we’re obsessing about tends to get projected onto others. And that makes sense because a major mental compulsion for themes like this is to compare ourselves to others obsessively. And to scrutinize every little detail, even when those details don’t make sense (people with sexual orientation ocd will often spend a lot of time trying to figure out if they or others “seem” gay/straight based on how they talk, walk, stand, dress, etc.)
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oh that makes sense!!!
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Me too! I'm not a csa survivor, but I still get terrified when I'm around anyone older than me. I guess I just find p*dos so terrifying that if one were in the same vicinity as me I think I'd have a panic attack and pass out. I'm constantly wondering "are they one? Are they gonna look at me or my baby sister?" Or "are they secretly a horrible person?" And yes, this goes for family too. I understand a bit.
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oh i get the sister thing, im always terrified for my little sisters around uncles or older men even when that havent shown any reason for me to obsessively be worried. i guess there is a healthy level of worry that should exist as a protective measure but when its like this in my head i know i need to try to work on it
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Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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I’m a csa survivor which made me develop hypersexuality while actually being a asexual individual. (Where I did CP and talked to groomers and sexted, ect ect) A few months ago I’ve started to heal, but the fact that I’ve seen so many private parts since I was idk, young? I imagine them everywhere, it’s really frustrating and sometimes I also get intrusive thoughts about other kids or my siblings. It’s deeply distributing but I also kind of think of it from a curious kind of aspect which I despise too. Honestly I have a hard time with any kid in underwear, my intrusive thoughts have been ALOT the last months and they’re really really overwhelming. I also easily go into overanalysing them or even trying to figure out more clearer the thoughts to “test myself”. I think, I hope. Idk it’s scary
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