katyh
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- 5y
MJocdMJocd
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- 5y
Yes, not family but I always have thoughts like "what if I end up marrying one?" "What if that person I admire is one?" I get thoughts like that and they're disturbing.
katyhkatyh
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- 5y
oh yeah that makes sense! the unknown is always so terrifying, i hope it gets easier for us both
cm&29393cm&29393
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- 5y
Me too!
pureolifepureolife
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- 5y
That is super common! Not just with your theme, but with many others too. For example, people with sexual orientation OCD will fixate on the sexual orientation of others. People with gender identity OCD will fixate on the gender of others. People with religious OCD will fixate on the goodness/morality of others. People with relationship OCD will fixate on others relationships. Whatever it is we’re obsessing about tends to get projected onto others. And that makes sense because a major mental compulsion for themes like this is to compare ourselves to others obsessively. And to scrutinize every little detail, even when those details don’t make sense (people with sexual orientation ocd will often spend a lot of time trying to figure out if they or others “seem” gay/straight based on how they talk, walk, stand, dress, etc.)
katyhkatyh
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- 5y
oh that makes sense!!!
EljaeeeEljaeee
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- 5y
Me too! I'm not a csa survivor, but I still get terrified when I'm around anyone older than me. I guess I just find p*dos so terrifying that if one were in the same vicinity as me I think I'd have a panic attack and pass out. I'm constantly wondering "are they one? Are they gonna look at me or my baby sister?" Or "are they secretly a horrible person?" And yes, this goes for family too. I understand a bit.
katyhkatyh
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- 5y
oh i get the sister thing, im always terrified for my little sisters around uncles or older men even when that havent shown any reason for me to obsessively be worried. i guess there is a healthy level of worry that should exist as a protective measure but when its like this in my head i know i need to try to work on it
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