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Yes, not family but I always have thoughts like "what if I end up marrying one?" "What if that person I admire is one?" I get thoughts like that and they're disturbing.
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oh yeah that makes sense! the unknown is always so terrifying, i hope it gets easier for us both
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Me too!
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That is super common! Not just with your theme, but with many others too. For example, people with sexual orientation OCD will fixate on the sexual orientation of others. People with gender identity OCD will fixate on the gender of others. People with religious OCD will fixate on the goodness/morality of others. People with relationship OCD will fixate on others relationships. Whatever it is we’re obsessing about tends to get projected onto others. And that makes sense because a major mental compulsion for themes like this is to compare ourselves to others obsessively. And to scrutinize every little detail, even when those details don’t make sense (people with sexual orientation ocd will often spend a lot of time trying to figure out if they or others “seem” gay/straight based on how they talk, walk, stand, dress, etc.)
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oh that makes sense!!!
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Me too! I'm not a csa survivor, but I still get terrified when I'm around anyone older than me. I guess I just find p*dos so terrifying that if one were in the same vicinity as me I think I'd have a panic attack and pass out. I'm constantly wondering "are they one? Are they gonna look at me or my baby sister?" Or "are they secretly a horrible person?" And yes, this goes for family too. I understand a bit.
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oh i get the sister thing, im always terrified for my little sisters around uncles or older men even when that havent shown any reason for me to obsessively be worried. i guess there is a healthy level of worry that should exist as a protective measure but when its like this in my head i know i need to try to work on it
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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