I feel like I should just give up at this point. My case/symptoms are so different from others and there's just too much evidence. All I want is to live alone for the rest of my life. I'm tired from these thoughts and these constant doubts that stop me from being happy. Sorry for constantly posting, but I'm done.

Mh0204

Date posted: 5y

Try to remember that ocd wants to make you feel like you’re the exception, that everyone else has ocd but your case is different. Every ocd sufferer has these thoughts because it feels real, so you’re looking and analyzing any “proof” to find when It’s just another trick to make you obsess. You’re fighting the obsession not the theme even if that’s hard to see when you’re deep in OCD’s cycle

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

can you explain to me so i can try to help?

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

My case is so different from others. I've talked to multiple people with HOCD and it seems like I'm the only person with a different situation.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@stars i need you to in depth explain. everyone’s case is different

Date posted: 5y

Different in what way

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

I just feel like what i'm going through is very distinct

Date posted: 5y

Can you please give an example

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

Well, the people i've talked to are all boy crazy and ive only had a few boy crushes and was never boy crazy

zeep

Date posted: 5y

@stars i haven’t been boy crazy ever- never have had a boyfriend- don’t worry, you aren’t alone :)

Date posted: 5y

Just because you not boy crazy it doesn’t mean anything. I only had a few girl crushes.

Dianaaa

Date posted: 5y

Please realize that u are describing symptoms of ocd. Treatment will come if you stop doing compulsions and accept the thought and uncomfortable sensation behind this thought...stay with it and realize you can handle this!! we are with you!

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

It doesn't feel like OCD anymore though. At first, I was in constant distressed and I cried almost every single day. I did tons of compulsions and I got triggered so many times. Now, I'm so desensitized to my thoughts, triggers, and literally everything. I'm still scared of the uncertainty but I feel like I'm actually the thoughts since I'm super desensitized. I can still go on with my day without constantly worrying like I used to. I'm just so confused and lost since I lost myself :/

Dianaaa

Date posted: 5y

exactly. It changes. Bc seeing it as "ocd" calmed you, and your ocd has found a way to not seem like ocd anymore, to make you more nervous. And it is succeeding, isn't it? that is ocd, it tries any sensation that scares us, and it uses it against us.

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

i barley get thoughts and i believe i'm going through the backdoor spike? I'm not even sure. It seems like it was ocd at first and then it turned into an actual crisis

Dianaaa

Date posted: 5y

@stars maybe you are, maybe you are not. We all can't be sure of anything, but accepting the extreme discomfort BEHIND these thoughts, staying with it, and realizing you can, in fact, handle any reality, that is recovery. You. Can. DO. THIS

Gaby

Date posted: 5y

Hey! I thought you should know that I also was never boy crazy. I always had crushes on boys and fantasized about men and who my perfect guy would be like, but I never went out of my way to pursue men. There are a lot of girls who are like us, and ocd will use anything as proof or disproof of whatever it is the theme is. We’ll get through this!

starry duck

Date posted: 5y

I fantasized too, I started imagining love stories in my head. But i was always a different girl in those fantasies. My name would always be different and i would look "super pretty." I didn't imagine myself, I created random characters and put me into the perspective of the female lead. I'm scared that this is a sign ugh

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