Alexi_12!
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- 5y
DianaaaDianaaa
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- 5y
ocd is "destroying" you (it feels like that sometimes doesn't it?) because we are running away from intense emotions. running away from fear, guilt, shame, dirtiness. It knows it can make us do whatever it wants, bc through compulsions, we are doing whatever it wants. It enslaves us through knowing that we will do anything but face our fear. But, if we face it, through exposure and not doing compulsions, then we are proving that we can handle the emotions and fear that imprisoned us for so long. compulsions are the only thing that continues the ocd cycle. Bc compulsions are not facing our emotions. If we faced and felt anxiety, pain and doubt full on, our ocd would dissipate. This is a terrible thing to deal with, but it is so treatable and there is a choice here. Compulsions and ocd, or letting go of compulsions, and recovery. The discomfort is worth the freedom, so please have courage and face what has imprisoned you for so long. You can do this!!
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
It's trying to protect you and help you.... Just so ineffectively that it's actually harming you. Try some compassion for yourself and your brain
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
This is fuckin DIGUSTING to live like this
abbielizabbieliz
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- 5y
I feel this. Lately, I’ve been getting genuinely angry at my OCD and it’s kinda been helping me in a way. Like just yelling, cursing, screaming and stopping dead in my tracks. (Also being careful to only yell at the OCD and not to yell at myself) It’s created an idea in my mind of a separation between the OCD and myself. Almost like I am in a war with the OCD, and every time I yell, shout, curse at it, I imagine it getting scared and giving up. And then I can perform my exercises a little bit easier. I dont know if this will help anyone but I thought I’d share incase
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
This is a great strategy. By externalizing the problem, you're taking your power back
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Vee4
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- 24w
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Anonymous
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- 20w
My brain hates me (18+)
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