Does anyone else have problems of where reality slips in to your OCD thoughts and they mix together and you don’t even know how to feel. And you feel worse. And you feel more guilty. And just like a horrible person.

I feel like what your going through is exposure, you chose to go against them, when your so used to agreeing with them, it’s going to be difficult, it will definitely get better. I thought I had harmed my dog, I had the same scenario as you, I thought about putting steaming hot water on my dog in the bath, and then I felt an evil feeling with the thought and went towards doing it (knowing logically the water was warm not steaming) and thought I did it thinking the water was hot steaming and convinced myself I had done that to intentionally harm my little dog. I felt awful, i can imagine it’s even worse for you as it’s your daughter, however, it’s never the content with ocd, the content can make it scarier, so for you it is your daughter which seems even scarier for example than if it being a pet of yours, but, the content does not matter, what matters is the root issue, which is the ocd, no matter what the content is do not make it scare you any more than any other thought, they are all thoughts & feelings and urges no matter what the content, but over time I just didn’t solve it in my head and it kind of just went on it’s own, as my brain got used to the anxiety of maybe I did maybe I didn’t, I can’t explain it, I never thought I would forget about it, and I’d have to tell the police & get 5 years in prison. But you will not stay in this state of shame and pain, it will get easier, hope your ok xx:) @freemeofocd

I am literally in your exactly position right now. I have absolutely convinced myself that I have harmed my daughter. She is my life. My heart. My soul. I would never intentionally harm her and the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach. But because reality came into play as I was battling in my head with my ocd thoughts, and I chose to go against them, I am absolutely convinced I have harmed her. I keep imagining her being taken from me, me going to jail, not being able to see her grow up, not being the mom I so desperately want to be to her, her growing up without a mom, alll of the absolute worst scenarios that make me absolutely sick. I’m so sad and scared and sick over this. I don’t even know what to do.... I feel like I’m going crazy.

Definitely been there..