My day was going okay but now I’m really anxious and want to cry :( I know they were trying to be positive but that post on my post sent me into a lot of distress . I know I’m still into guys I just don’t have feelings towards them rn . I just want to be my old boy crazy self :((

Like worrier247 said, maybe you like girl or maybe you are still crazy about boy, only you know what you are deep down. In fact we all know what we are and so all the rest, worries and whatnots, are just ocd. I mean what determine a gay person ultimately, their actions. They fantasize about gay sex and they are actually searching to get gay sex in reality. But you and me are just fearing the thoughts of it, we are not actively searching to realize our thoughts. Anyway, true sexual orientation is suppose to feel good in any circumstances possibles. So when a gay thoughts come into our mind and we feel fear, anxiety and just want to cry then it's can only be one thing ocd. I'm sure that I trigger your ocd with my first phrase and I'm sorry, but it's the way to look at your ocd, as a remote possibility. To live and to be certain about anything in life is impossible. So uncertainty is our big problem, in fact it's the intolerance to uncertainty that make us anxious. Like I said before maybe you are a lesbian and maybe I'm gay and it should remain a possibility. We live with uncertainty all the time and we are ok with it, example; I take my car to go to work each day like billions of people but there's still a chance i could die in a car accident. I'm going to eat tonight, well i could choke to death. Then i'm gonna go to sleep and it's a possibility that i could die in my sleep. So you see there're just very very very unlikely possibilities and yet we are ok with the risks. This is no different than our sexual orientation ocd, we might turn gay but what are the odds 1 in a 100 billions who knows, it's a very remote possibility so try to let go of it.

maybe I like girls maybe I don’t You’ll get through it. Girls are p cool

To beat any ocd, the trick is to let the thoughs or feelings of being gay just pass through you and this mean feeling every bits of fear and anxiety and just let those feelings go down on their own. Our ocd make us think that we can't endure that fear and anxiety and that if we don't react to the intrusives thoughts, we will just make our fear become real. It's like a bully who would put a blindfold over your eyes and describing horrible threatening things that are about to happen to you and pushes you to do things to cancel those threats. Of course to have full control over you, it will threat you by saying that if you remove that blindfold even worse things will happen but of course if you would have peek to see that nothing is threatening you, then his control over you would be over. Thus by enduring the anxiety you would just signal to your brain that even if you don't react to the ocd thoughts, nothing bad will happen, you will remain straight anyway. This is exposure response prevention (ERP) and it's one of the most efficient way to treat all form of ocd.