So I have no attraction to woman and I still get uncomfy false attractions. But hey my attraction to men is back ! I also get a ton of anxiety whenever I think about relationships with either. But that doesn't matter. All I care about is the fact that my attraction is back.

I just kinda stopped thinking about it and if I felt a guy was cute then I thought about what makes him cute! Though I do still get false attractions

@Someone shut up my brain Happy for you. I hope i get my attraction back. I have become a empty shell😔. No feelings no emotions

@magicwizard Yeah I get you don't worry. I feel numb when I think too hard about relationships but I just try my best to focus on it . I've had HOCD for about two years now, and I've tried my best to learn how to cope and deal with it.

@Someone shut up my brain Please suggest me ways you're dealing with it.

@magicwizard Well since I haven't really gotten therapy I'm not sure if I'm the most keen person to talk to about this. But what I leaned from these two years -Is just focus on my attraction on guys and stop being in my head all the time. -I sometimes am mean to myself and tell myself "Normal people don't think like this. Relax." -I stopped testing myself , before HOCD I never watched porn. And once I did I ended up getting a gronial over something I didn't like which made it 100x more worse. And I ended up having a weird addiction to it which was horrible I felt gross and dirty. -Im also keeping myself busy , LIKE actually busy. By either doing school work or practing my music or cleaning my room when it gets really messy since that's big problem I have. I also watch tv and movies a lot , a lot of classic tv (green acres, M.A.S.H, The Kate Bennett Show) and korean dramas or korean reality tv! ( I recommend Return of the Superman , it's about father's taking care of their children throughout the week it's super cute 10/10 recommend it ) And if you're Religious , prey, just prey, it could be about anything thanking God for giving you life, I'm a Christian so I rely a lot on my faith. All of these are things that I do that help me sometimes. Of course like normal OCD I have my bad days and my good days. At the moment the amount of good and bad days are equal but I try to calm down and take a moment to breath and try my best to get out of my head.

I know it's hard atm. I felt like that to in the beginning but it gets better. You just have to learn that you have a mental illness.

@Someone shut up my brain Yes.. I'm completely numb these days. I feel like I've never loved my bf and I'm scared to love him again because of my thoughts. I'm so confused. I don't want to leave him.

@magicwizard Yeah it was like that too when I was with my ex-boyfriend. Funny enough , it all stemmed from me thinking as why my past relationships have failed .

Yeah I get you. The many things have HOCD has done to me are -loss of attraction -uncomfortable gronials to a lot of things -i developed gastritis I can't eat spicy foods anymore - I get uncomfortable when girls compliment me - false attractions -im in my head constantly And many other things. But I try my best to distract myself like I said

@Someone shut up my brain I pray for your recovery and mine too🙏🏻