After the caronavirus started every surface seems a threat to me. Even at home, I can not touch door knobs or buttons. I continuously wash hands. Skin on my hands have become very dry and damaged due to continuous washing with soap.

I have the same thing going on. Even when I know that something can’t possibly have covid on it I still can’t touch it because my brain thinks it’s dirty

Kstan are you doing anything to decrease the problem ?

I'm the same and I feel. It's getting worse. My partner got someone to bring her equipment from work to our house, she wouldn't let me clean it on my own so I knew it was done right, she did some of it and I know she didn't do it right as she is lazy and not thorough. Now I feel. The whole house is contaminated aand because she has touched everything its too late to fix it and she wonnt let me anyway. I can't distinguish between what's a real threat and what is ocd. What can I do?? I'm laying wide awake now at 3.30.am with workn in the morning (I have to work at the kitchen table with the mess of 'cintaminated' monitors and cables that she has brought into the house, and she sees my worry as stupid and diesnt care. If I get this virus I'm dead. I'm so angry with her and I don't want this to destroy us. But in my mind she has brougt a threat into the house and done nothing to mitigate it. My house is not my home anymore, it all just feels dirty, I think she is dirty and careless, and I'm just constantly uncomfortable and anxious in my own home. I want to leave and never come back

Rosie I can understand what you going through. Very similar experience I've had already with packages. You can let yourself know that after 5 days all surfaces will themselves become free of virus, maybe that will help

I hope she understands that is very hard for someone going through this. For me now I cant even touch wipes because I think that their packaging is not clean or sanitising sprays. Not ideal, but then I avoid surfaces if I can for some days. Are you taking any medication yet ?

Anything I get into the house that I can't clean I put into a safe space for 5 days and then I'm fine owrh touching them. She understands to a point but when it incinviences her she gets annoyed and irritated. Deep into her core she is a bit of a self centred person so when something doesn't suit her she wont put herself out. So she understands to a point but not beyond that point. I'm going to have to aks her in the morning can I clean all the wires and tidy them away the best I can and because that will I convince her she will be annoyed so I am dreading it. So resentful of her at the minute as she is laying upstairs snoring happily away (which keeps me awake most nights) anyway), I was finally asleep and he bounced up into bed wriggled about not a care as to wether it kept me awake or not and now I'm on the sofa wide awake still hear her snoring from downstairs. And the odd night that I snore she has the cheek to say it disturbed her sleep. Anyway that's just a side point because I am nnkyed I'm not sleeping and feeling crappy. No I'm not on any meds. I was on meds from I was 17 up untill a few years ago recently I stopped them because I developed an u healthy ritual around taking them. Most of my ocd was previously centred around my parents. Sadly they dosed last year after long illnesses and now my ocd has jumped on covid 19!! It's so frustrating. Plus my partner said tonight that we have had enough stress this past 2 years (she has lost hair and blames the worry about me when my parents were ill for it..... Not helping the issues I have with excessive responsibility or the anger I have towards her) and she a said that WE weren't going to let OCD get in the way of good times. Easier said that done

I hope you are able to sleep. I couldn't sleep tonight as well. It was raining hard and I couldn't get a shut eye for long. I had a wire on floor for charging my phone. I put it on charging but now I'm stressed that it was touching floor so won't be clean. I feel like cleaning my hands and phone. I am taking meds now. They do help to ease the stress but to work on decreasing the rituals we have to and will need to work on our will. Having a good partner or someone beside you that you trust really helps though

Aw man, I feel for you, its terrible being a prisoner of our own thoughts. It's a daily battle but like you say if we work hard then hopefully one day we will be pretty much free of this beast

Yes i agree. Do you use WhatsApp or any other app where we can stay connected? I think us sharing maybe be helpful

Yeah I do, can you private message on here as I don't really want to post my number online

I will delete the message as soon as you add me