I really need help and I was talking to someone who is trans boy and he was telling me how he found out his trans and he was like I have internalised transphobia and he was like that a few years ago I’m worried because he told me to be open and try things I had a mini panic attack and I’m still scared

I’m scared that I’m trans women

@hunterxhunter you just have to sit with the uncertainty

@getwellsoon He told me I am transgender and said he open and try it out

I feel like he was right

I also feel like I’m experiencing dysphoria ugh

@hunterxhunter Have you felt like you were a girl when you were a young kid?

@hallebutton Nope I was always happy being a boy and I enjoyed boy stuff and found girls gross and I would deny my crushes on them

@hunterxhunter Honestly like actual gender dysphoria starts when you are a child and saying things to people like"im a girl" or "i was supposed to be born a girl" im having the same struggle right now but i know that i would regret going on T because like the effects of horimone therapy dont reverse. Your friend shouldn't be telling you what your gender is.

@hunterxhunter Maybe you're just a feminine guy

@hallebutton Do u have an Instagram or something so we can talk to each other about it

@hallebutton My name is pouges._

@hunterxhunter Im sorry at the moment im grounded from insta. Idk if there is like a more private chat thing here but I'll gladly talk to you about it

@hallebutton I don’t think there’s one here when u Get ungrounded I will love for to talk

@hunterxhunter Ok i wrote down your username

I just don’t wanna be trans or anything else I don’t like feminine things

@hunterxhunter That's reasonable. Its hard being trans and the like. Here for u if u need support!

@hunterxhunter (Not trying to reassure or anything) like you don't want to be trans like you have nothing to worry about. You don't like feminine things its ok. Being trans is about how your brain was made

@hallebutton True. Usually people dont "develop" into being trans. Most are born with the "opposite" brain of the sex they were born as. Most of the time you'll find that you've always had thoughts of longing to be the opposite sex or doing things thatd make you appear more like the opposite sex.

@kaylin84 Its so confusing like right now im trying to figure out if im actually a girl on the inside also. Because i liked playing dress up and stuff but like boys can like that too. I feel like I have more of a male brain

Aw you should wear whatever you like wearing. Im literally like too scared to change my name or call myself non binary even though ive always been so much more comfortable with it. But my parents would definately not support me:(

@hallebutton I'm right there with you!! I want a binder and maybe to change my name but I know my parents would kill me if they found out. I'm just having my friends call me by a cute nickname for now until I figure things out lol

@kaylin84 How old are you if you dont mind me asking(im 15)

@hallebutton I'm 18 :)

@kaylin84 I mean like once you move out you could get a binder and stuff. Tbh its really nice to talk to someone else who has the same struggles as me

@hallebutton Yeah. Moving out has been on my mind heavy lately. Idk how well itd work tho. I really need a job haha. And yeah same here. My gender identity is something that's hard for me to talk about with my friends because I know they dont really get it

@kaylin84 Yeah like tbh im too scared to talk to my friends about it. Having my brain like this is weird like sometimes im ok with being a girl but sometimes i have boobs and im like"ew i hate these". I have a lot of trans friends I should probs just ask them lol

@hallebutton🐳 Yeah I get it. It's hard having these feeling switch all the time. It gets annoying and tiring

@hallebutton🐳 Are u non binary

@kaylin84 I am 15 rn I do acting so my teacher was like what genre are u interested in and I was like action/superheros the was this female superhero and my brain was like u have to be a girl so u can you play her

@hunterxhunter Yeah i think so

@hallebutton🐳 Do u ever think it’s mostly ocd

@hunterxhunter Not really because like im not sure exactly but it doesn't make me feel anxious or anything. Like its one of the only things I've felt sure about

@hallebutton🐳 Maybe ask your therapist

@hunterxhunter Ill ask but i dont think so

@hallebutton🐳 Have u ever felt comfortable as a girl

@hunterxhunter There were definately alot of girl things i hated doing. I hated wearing dresses to fancy church i only liked wearing shorts and a t shirt. As a kid i used to watch how boys would like flick their hair out of their face and i would copy how they sat and literally would copy everything they did. Honestly like it feels like boy and girl parts of my brain are constantly fighting

@hallebutton🐳 My sister was like that you were a tomboy probably

@hunterxhunter Look i dont want to assume anything but i feel like you are trying to convince me that im not Non-binary or trans or whatever

@hallebutton🐳 I was trying help to see if I could relate to it

@hunterxhunter Oh im sorry

@hunterxhunter Yeah but i feel like we are experiencing different things