I can’t stop crying. My partner has been very distant. He just admitted he has pulled back because of how bad my ocd has gotten. I found out he was seeing his ex behind my back and has been lying to me to push me away because he can’t handle how bad it has gotten. I feel really sad. And I’m at a really low place. I feel like no one will love me because of the ocd. The one person I trusted and was vulnerable with just told me that my health condition is making him takes steps back from me. I’m extremely codependent on him because of the ocd. I feel so scared to be alone and battle this alone.

This has touched me so much. Honestly, I am here to speak to. You don’t have to battle this alone. You are stronger than you think. I always have for remind myself that you have got this far and you will continue to move forward. Please value yourself. You are worth the battle and that’s most important. X

Wow. I’m feeling for you so much right now. I have POCD and a boyfriend who doesn’t know. I’m codependant on him too and too scared to admit my issues to him. You should be proud of yourself that you were brave enough to speak your mind. I also use my boyfriend as a coping mechanism by escaping my OCD. in the long run, you speaking out is a step to recovery for helping yourself. If he won’t stand with you through your journey, it’s better you know sooner than later. You deserve love and understanding, and don’t regret being honest with him. This is your journey to recovery and you’ve done something I am a long way from getting too. I will get there one day. Keep moving forwards. If you want to chat, I’m here. X

I am so sorry to hear you are suffering a lot now :( Despite everything OCD throws at you, you are worthy of love and compassion - I know it's difficult to accept when OCD makes you believe you are a monster or a freak but that's true :) It's hard for us to have the impression that no one understands what we are going through but I am sure you'll find someone out there open minded and ready to love you :) I don't know if it can help but I found this video quite encouraging https://youtu.be/4QobdCPzHb0 and it always calms me down to listen to John Green's Youtube videos about OCD and mental health because I am happy to see that it is possible to live a fulfilling life and build a great support system despite all our anxiety :) Take care and please reach out if you need to talk - remember you are not alone in this! ♡

im sorry youre going through this hang in there, youve always got a place to vent and get support on here you 💕

@anonymous21 @tryingtogetoverthis Thank you so much for you kind words It’s things like this that make me feel I’m not alone This is a tough thing and knowing I have some form of support makes it that much easier ♥️

I know, I have got great comfort from realising i am not alone too. I have always been discusted with my illness. But there’s some sort of beauty in the fact that I know there’s other people like you pushing through the pain regardless, and making these steps to get better. I may never know who you are but I know we are fighting together. This is the first time I have spoken out for 5 years. It’s so painful but I feel like I’m doing this for a better life. Keep on pushing forward and loving yourself regardless of whatever we tell ourselves. We deserve it. @natpon25

@frenchbadger thank you so much😓 I’ll check out the video. ♥️ I appreciate the support