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See I had a horrible situation with my own son the other day, he just fell asleep and I had my hand on his bum I had the urge to move my hand around to check if i got aroused I was uncomfortable and scared that I would so moved my hand then I put it back on to check exactly where I had put my hands and it just went into a vicious cycle After this I felt like I had actually molested him because I acted on the thought even though it was to check. My mind is keep telling me I did it purposely and that really I enjoyed it It really is hell and I feel terrible My therapist said i would know if this was something i wanted to do and i would just carry on doing it without caring But how do i know that's what freaks me out when i acted on the thought
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Ocd does that in order for us to feel like bad people trust me I’m not trying to reassure you but the way my therapist helped me was through intent. Your ocd wanted to check to see if you felt normal or if you felt arousal however you didn’t you moved it away but you put it back to make sure you didn’t touch him inappropriately. However, you have to look at it from both perspectives lets say you would have checked to make sure you didn’t feel any arousal you checked to make sure you felt normal correct? You are checking based on fear thats the intent behind it because you and I both know you feel normal and you feel no arousal thus, you didn’t molest him. And I know your ocd is going to over analyze and make you feel as if you did no matter what I say because I was caught in that vicious cycle as well but trust me when I say this! The simple fact that you felt guilty and affraid after that occuring goes to show that you have not done sed act. Any child molestor and pedophile feels no guilt at all they enjoy what they do to children and they feel no guilt or remorse towards their actions.
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Thankyou so much, that makes total sense. I know deep down that I have no intention of harming my child and like you said it's me checking for sure that I dont feel what my mind is saying I'm going to feel. But afterwards it just strengthens everything I tried to stop. I'm sorry you've had to go through this, it really is the worst thing I have ever had to go through. Thanks again for your advise and help.
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I know it’s hard and its hard not to get caught up inside the mental compulsions of over analyzing it! Your body gets used to the guilt that it likes to go back to analyzing the situation and making you feel like a terrible person but understand I am always here and you can contact me on this forum whenever! We are not alone we are going through this together
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Thank you so much 😊 Same to you
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