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My OCD latches on to my children too whom I love the most so I feel your pain. But we have to be strong and keep doing erp even though it feels horrible. We have to do it for our little ones. They needs us to be mentally healthy.
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It is OCD talking. Think of it as a drunken person trying to trash talk you. Good job doing the exposure. Please try your best to not over analyze the situation. As time passes by you will have a better graspe of reality. You are doing this hard work of exposure so that you can be the best mom for your daughter. Respect to you! Keep going.
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Thank you so much ❤️ I appreciate your support. Tonight has been a rough night. Re living it again and again thinking would if I’m remembering it wrong or forgetting key details or what if I’m in denial and actually did it in a malicious way and used ERP as an excuse? I’ve been having a really hard time tonight. 😔 how old are your children? Has ocd latched onto them in a POCD type way as well?
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@Freemeofocd I have 3 children, my oldest is 5. I don't have pocd now. My OCD themes revolve around them too but in different ways. I had pocd before having children. But I got over that theme by saying to myself "it is OCD. It is not me". Ocd likes to make us use the "what if" questions a lot. That is its oldest trick. I feel your pain. You seem like a wonderful mother who lives her child deeply. Try to live with uncertainty and anxiety for your child. Ruminating won't get you anywhere. You LL NEVER find an answer that shuts OCD down. I just woke up and already anxious. But I am determined to do the least amount of compulsions today for my beautiful children sake. They need a healthy mom. And I have to do it for them.
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@Freemeofocd I literally would die for my children. So the least I could do today for them is to sit with the anxiety so my OCD won't get worse. I told myself that every day. Good luck to you today. 😊
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Good job stepping out to expose your OCD and fear. Don't get it get the victory. You knew the OCD was going to attack and it did. Embrace the uncertainty and allow yourself to be proud in taking a step to challenging your OCD.
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I have this with my child I actually purposely moved my hand on his bum to check And afterwards I felt like I actually molested him But I knew I only did it to reassure my self but it just made it worse
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I know, our stories are so similar. How are you feeling tonight? I’ve been replaying the story in my mind over and over again for almost a month, all day everyday. I can’t seem to shake the doubt. I was starting to get better and now I’m having a really hard time again 😔 I keep feeling like I did it for the wrong reasons and I’m using erp as an excuse.
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@Freemeofocd Was this a reply to me ? I Feel up and down really, one minute I'm ok then the next I'm shit. I do the exact same thing I replay what I did and i know that i was just checking but my mind convinces me otherwise
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@b2192 Yes that reply was to you. Ugh same here. I go in waves. Sometimes I’m like you’re being ridiculous, let it go, it’s your ocd. And then other times I get into a panic and I’m like you’re just using ocd as an excuse. It’s so terrifying. 😣 how old is your son?
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I have suffered exactly like you since having my little girl too. she is now 8 and I am still trying to regain control. we will get there eventually ❤
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We will do this 💪 we will overcome. Are you in therapy?
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@Freemeofocd I have had loads of CBT over the years and also tried psychodynamic therapy which have both helped but I feel I would constantly need to be In therapy and that unfortunately costs a fortune. x
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Did you have the same issues like me ? Everytime I research this stuff people say you never act on ocd urges but I feel like I have even though I know it was just me trying to reassure myself I still feel like I acted on it when I shouldnt have its horrible
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Yeah I feel exactly the same, I wake up feeling like was I doing it because I wanted to or was it to check But I know for a fact it was to check and it's my ocd making me doubt
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