Guys again today has been very hard for me. I was sitting down and I saw my sister sitting in a certain way. I didn’t thing it was sexually attractive. But like the way her body was positioned in an arch or sumn was weird. And I noticed it. And it because a lot of the times I see people post sexual pictures or I find people attractive in similar poses. But like I don’t wan to find my little sister attractive. And I don’t. But like I noticed the pose and I was really scared that I found it attractive. She was also wearing a shirt that showed a lot of her legs. And I don’t know the way my mind describes things to me sometimes makes things worse. Like the way I tried to talk to myself to calm myself down worried me more. Like my mind is slowly trying to convince I am attracted. But like why. Why does this have to happen. I’m I a pedophile??! What if I actually found it attractive? Do pedos get worried like this? Help!! Anyone else experience something similar? Help!!

Look at the way you’re scrutinizing every little detail of this one moment. Look at how many times you’re mentally reviewing this. Look at the immediate and overbearing need you feel to “figure this out.” And look at the final questions you wrote asking for reassurance. These are compulsions. And this is how we know this is OCD. Stop the mental reviewing. Stop the reassurance seeking. These feel like they will help, but they actually just feed your OCD and keep you locked into this cycle for longer. These cannot and will not ever lead you to a final and difinitive answer that brings you peace and certainty. Maybe your sensations were attraction. Or maybe they were just sensations brought on by thinking too much about not wanting to feel any sensations. You don’t know. And you actually can’t know and don’t need to know with any more certainty than you have in this moment. Breath. Let the anxiety that you feel allowing for uncertainty just be there and leave on its own when it’s ready. You’ve got this.

And my mind describes to me in a more sexual way for some reason. Also I always do the compulsion of researching stuff and on quora or Reddit there is people who describe things like my mind is describing. So I’m not sure if that has to do anything with the way my mind is describing it. Cuz a lot of those stories make me feel disgusted and it’s similar to what’s happening to me. Help!!

Dont worry yourself OCD does this, its horrendous what it can do to your mind The fact you find it awful and it makes you anxious means you dont enjoy it and it's your mind tricking you The best thing to do is when you get these thoughts dont analyse them.