I want to share my story (so far) So around October 2019 I began to take my Christian Faith more seriously. This took my actions more seriously. I wanted avoid doing things that were sinful. In the beginning it was pretty small stuff like not cussing or disobeying my parents. But at the time I was working at a restaurant which was a good job until I realized my actions there could be sinful. I thought I had to make everything sanitary because I wanted to treat my neighbor how I would like to be treated, but I took it to an extreme. So if coworkers didn’t wash their hands before drying silverware or if they used a “dirty” rag I would freak out and imagine staying all night to clean all the silver ware because it was “what God wanted me to do” as months went on It got progressively worse and I would see people touch there phone and then touch a clean glass I would take the glass and have it re washed. I got to my boiling point because I thought my job was the reason my ocd was bad. So I quit my job and thought things would get better. They didn’t. Looking back now I realize that I was giving in to my OCD and letting It win. So I have been unemployed for a couple months now and at the beginning it was good but now I can barely leave the house because driving is a lot for my brain to take in and I have some religious views on why driving is harmful for me (I know this is not true and crazy) another thing I’ve had struggles with is I’ll be doing something like bouncing a ball on a wall and catching it and I’ll have a thought like “if you don’t catch it than God doesn’t want you to take that trip” basically making vows to God that I didn’t actually make but my ocd put in my head Anyways that’s my main issues with ocd. Yesterday night I was having a really rough time because I went to the restroom and I touched the hand towel and I thought It was now contaminated so I went back to my room and layed down in agony and I reallly wanted it to be over. I watched a video on YouTube on how to treat ocd and it talked about ERP (I think that’s what it’s called) so basically if you think maybe God wouldn’t want you to do something or maybe something will cause you to sin just do it or think about it and say “I don’t know whether that’s sin or not and I can’t know so I’m just gonna not worry about it” so I went into the kitchen and drank from the tap because I had this obsession that my mom didn’t want me to drink from the tap (I don’t think it’s true but I made my self believe it) and I ate fruit that wasn’t washed and I didn’t brush my teeth before bed because all these things were obsessions of mine it felt liberating to say I don’t know. So then I went to bed feeling empowered but I have this feeling because i still don’t want to sin against God and it seemed like ERP kind of makes you sin. So I was curious if anyone who’s a christian or dealt with Scrupulosity could encourage me on my path and tell me how to view ERP because I don’t want to sin while I’m trying to get rid of my OCD or at least get it controlled. Thanks for your time if anyone reads this I really needed to vent I guess.