Im so tired I’m soooo done I hate my life I hate myself OCD has taking everything from me EVERYTHING

Your post reminds me of the quote "learn to rest, not to quit". It's ok if you don't have hope for yourself right now. Other people can hold hope for you until you can rekindle your own.

:/ sorry to hear. Do you need someone to chat with? Are you safe right now? (My offer to chat still stands either way).

It’s ok, I wouldn’t offer if it was a bother. But I also get not wanting to chat about stuff. Take care of yourself. 🙂

Personally, I don’t beleive there’s such thing as a lost cause, but mental illness does try to convince us that things will never get better. What if you acted like you believed things could get better, even when you don’t believe it yet? Because (and I got this advice from Katie the advocate so I can’t take credit for it) we change thoughts by changing actions. What are some things someone who believes whole heartedly they can recover might do differently than you’re doing now?

Yeah. I hear you. It can be really tiring to deal with mental illness. Some of what helped me most when I was down was a few lifestyle changes along with erp. I fixed my sleep schedule, I stopped taking so many classes. I worked on my self esteem a bit too.

Yeah. I also have multiple mental health issues and a disability. Do you want advice or do you just want me to listen?

Ok cool, I can do that. I’ve definitely had that “I’m so exhausted I don’t know what to do anymore,” feeling. It’s rough. I think what helped me most was learning where I could set boundaries in my life so I had more time to focus myself, and letting myself take a break every now and again.

That sounds really tough. Have you tried working on assertiveness before? If so what have you tried?

I’d definitely second that suggestion, erp is the best way to treat ocd. I’ve got a few links about it. https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/ocd-treatment/erp/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-exactly-is-exposure-and-response-prevention-erp/ It’s recommended you do erp with a therapist, but there’s lots of resources for doing self-erp while you wait to get a therapist. This app is a pretty good place to ask questions about erp, if you have any.

@Nikki1809 Some ocd self help books: https://iocdf.org/books/ And here is a pdf if you need it: https://www.pdfdrive.com/the-ocd-workbook-your-guide-to-breaking-free-from-obsessive-compulsive-disorder-e157834125.html I might suggest that in addition to doing erp you find ways to build self esteem and work on assertiveness. Would you be able to get a therapist to do erp with or do erp with your psychiatrist?