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I’m sorry you’re going through this. This is probably obvious, but there’s no replacement for seeking professional advice. Maybe try an OCD specialist? Or just a general therapist? I feel for you. Whether this is OCD, depression, or any other mental illness, these feelings can be overwhelming. Until you can seek help, perhaps try various breathing exercises, distracting yourself/unwinding with movies or coloring, etc. breathing in through the nose to the count of five and out through the mouth to the count of five until you feel more relaxed has helped me a lot. Or repeating silly phrases or quotes. Stay strong and please, please, speak to someone who is a professional! :)
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Reading this sounds exactly like me!!! I don’t think you are depressed it just seems like uncertainty ocd .. however seeking professional help is the route to go!!! You can start to help yourself now though by researching all about ocd and intrusive thoughts. Remember that ocd is not you it is the bully. ERP Therapy helped me get over those doom/hopeless thoughts I printed out a few erp worksheets that dealt with intrusive thoughts and began reshaping the way I thought when I felt that way.. good luck you will get through it!
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Also, if you can’t afford therapy there are ocd research studies available at numerous universities that teach ERP for free (the recommended type of therapy for OCD). They may even compensate you. I live in NY, and went to a Columbia university study which helped me. Best of luck!
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Thanks so much. I spoke at length today with my dad who is a doctor and have an appointment booked with a therapist in a couple of weeks. I have a great support system and when I’m in a more relaxed frame of mind I know I’m not at risk of hurting myself. I just get terrified at the thought. I love my kids and my life. I might get overwhelming feelings but I continue to fight and trust God.
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Thanks so much! This is helpful
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- 24w
I am diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, and mild depression. But my OCD symptoms are so prominent in my daily life where it feels debilitating. It comes in waves, there will be months with very minor symptoms and other times where it comes in random hitting me like a truck making me rethink life. I grew up having intrusive thoughts of all types, and a lot of them sent me over the edge because I couldn’t understand why things of such sort would cross my mind, things that I’m sure to this day that I’m incapable of or would never want to actually do. Yet I find myself in a constant cycle of trying to dig deep in the past and trying to figure out if I ever acted on any of the intrusive thoughts I can remember, yet ofc have no recollection of acting on them because they most likely didn’t happen. However, not having concrete proof of these things makes me not want to see another day sometimes. It is so hard to move into daily basis like this. I’m also in a happy healthy relationship and sometimes I get these thoughts of “what if I’ve done something awful during the relationship (for example, cheat, dishonesty, etc.) and can’t remember?” I know I would never do anything intentionally to harm my relationship and I think that maybe the idea of not having my partner sends me down a rabbit hole to think all these things. This mental fight is getting harder and harder. It feels unbearable. Does anyone have some fruit for thought, relate, or have any tips?
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Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!
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I’m really anxious because I know my ocd is really bad right now so I shouldn’t try to figure it out cause my thinking is a mess but I’ve been having feelings of like I’m not sure if I love him anymore or worrying that I haven’t felt a lot like numb (a lot because ocd has been getting worse and worse) and thinking of like how I’ve been focusing on the negatives and only been looking at him through that lens and analyzing and also feeling like I don’t want this anymore. Basically just like negative thinking in feeling like I’m really scared it’s that it’s I don’t love him cause I don’t want it to be over and the thought of having someone replace him makes me ill. But like it feels like I’m not seeing him how I used to and it makes me upset. Today I was near someone I was like oh this person is cute and then I was thinking that the possibility of meeting someone new sounds exciting and now I’m freaking out because this in combination with feeling like maybe I don’t love him anymore is bad. Also my thoughts keep changing. and like sometimes it feels like I don’t care at all and this has happened but like worst it’s ever been and then other times I’m like I do care I do still feel. I’m just really anxious has anyone else felt this before and it was still ocd? 😭😭
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