I am having some fears regarding sexual assault from a cruise I took back in 2011. During the cruise I was with some friends, and we went to a dance floor later at night. I am pretty sure this dance floor was 18+ as there was a ton of security checking ID's and checked my friends backpack and saw he had alcohol (he was 18) and took him and I to head of security. I did not give him the alcohol but he kept trying to claim it on me, I refused to sign anything so he finally admitted to it and signed the document and they confiscated the alcohol and we returned to the dance floor. I was visually upset and drank a significant amount of alcohol. I do remember we were all dancing on the dance floor and the first lady who was clearly taller than me danced asking where I was from. Later that night things got more crazy, people break dancing and others drunk. There was one girl I recall was dancing with many men including one of my friends and they were placing a song where the lyrics say "go low low low low" so I iust put my hand in her hip and did the same movements. She didn't force me away or anything, but during the song someone took a picture of us and freaked me out. She stood up turned around and held my wrists looked at me in eyes like "oh your not who i want to dance with" and walked away. Later that night I remember just putting my hand on someone elses hip and dancing they didnt do anything so i just solo danced. This was 9 almost 10 years ago. I have now thought what if I sexually assaulted someone or somehow one of these girls was a minor? I do remember a heavy security presence there, lota of cameras, clearly a lot of people there. Some girls wouldn't dance with me because my face looked young so they thought i was in highschool (i was 24 or 25). I think being drunk doesn't excuse it but my memory seems faster than what it was being sober some of the images in my head are a flash. I feel like a terrible person but then I am also thinking if I did do something, I assume Security would have done something, there would have been a complaint or I probably would have been arrested on American shores if this was the case What triggered this I guess was seeing the Ron Jeremy arrest story.

made out with a guy in my room one night but he was drinking and i was sober. he wasn’t showing signs of drunkness we were able to chat and stuff but now i am distrusting my judgement. i would never intend to take advantage of someone.

Hey, so I wanted to ask about something that is trying to bother me right now. I just thought to come on here before letting my mind ruminate over and over and over. So a year ago when I was 22, I did not have many people to talk to aside from my roommates who were either not home during the summer or just to themselves so I decided to try out Omegle. I talked to a few different people on there, but there’s two people in particular that kind of made me worried. There is this one girl I was talking to from Canada and she told me the story about her and her friends smoking weed, and I told her about how my female roommate used to sleep in my bed. But the way I told her that was by asking for her Instagram so I could DM her that rather than say it out loud because my roommate was in the next room. At some point during our conversation, she told me that she was 16, and I’m not even sure how we came about that but she told me. Before I continue, we were not flirting at all. We were just sharing stories, that was it. My intention was to not flirt at all with anyone because of age and the fact that they probably nowhere near me. Also, I just kind of thought it would be weird too. But now I can’t remember if she told me her age before I told her about my roommate or after I told her about my roommate, but I feel like it was before because I kind of felt like I should’ve unfollowed her after. And what made it worse is that somehow my roommate saw her Instagram handle and followed her as well. Another instance was when this girl was being very goofy and playing the character and I was joking back and I ended up being invited into their Instagram group chat, where I found out they were also 16 so without saying anything, I left the group chat. So my worries if this was inappropriate or was it just a conversation that I probably should’ve cut short. I’m not sure but it’s starting to worry me. And just for context, I have no idea that girl or anybody else since that day and it NEVER went sexual at all. So yeah, that’s the story

i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.