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Yes. I had this very badly as a teen, my ex was an addict and I was beyond paranoid about his safety. And this was also partly codependency but I was paranoid about his happiness in general, I never wanted to say or do anything that would upset him because he was very sensitive and would get this look on his face like I hurt him and withdraw and have emotional outbursts. It made it super difficult when I broke up with him (prevented me from doing so for ages) because I talked about some bad stuff he did in the relationship and then felt like I'd done the worst thing in the world by talking about it, esp because I'd promised not to. He just still felt like my responsibility. And I tried to force him to go to therapy because I got paranoid he'd do the same things to his next gf and that it would be my fault. It was bad again when my mother had to go in the hospital for a couple of weeks and I wanted to visit her every day and was googling constantly in case I could find some useful info (they didn't know what was wrong with her) and couldn't stop thinking about it 24/7. We don't even have a great relationship 😂
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I have it a bit with contamination ocd. Sometimes I have scared people will contaminate me, but other times I am scared I will contaminate others and make them sick. I have been purchasing my parents various masks like crazy. I've dropped 300 dollars on masks for them because I'm so scared. My mum works in a school and is starting soon and I just dropped 200 dollars on a new bed frame and will be buying her mattress too so that she can sleep in a separate room from my dad who has COPD.
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Omg I spend so much money on panic buying for other people! From carbon monoxide detectors to eye drops to masks to hand lotion 🙄 I totally understand being worried about your mom working in a school, I’d probably end up doing the same. It’s so hard not to always try to help.
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That’s one of my bigger themes, second to scrupulousity for me, though the two themes are probably related for me. Like I constantly need to check in on people, and I think anything bad that happens is my fault. I genuinely struggle to tell the difference between when it’s my responsibility to intervene in a situation and when it isn’t.
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100% with you. I’m always worried about something being “my fault.” It just feels like if I can intervene, I should?? Like why not try to stop bad things from happening? But I’m slowly learning that 1. trying to maintain that kind of control negatively affects my own quality of life, and 2. I annoy people lol
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But yeah I used to talk my bf out of going out as much as possible and when he wouldn't listen I tagged along 99% of the time instead to try to make sure nothing happened. -_-
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I feel this so much. Like somehow my presence is going to stop bad things from happening lol. Sorry you went through that with your bf and mom, that sounds so tough.
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Hey guys! So I struggle with OCD, especially harm, relationship and moral stuff and I am somewhat recovered now. However, my current girlfriend has started showing signs of OCD but it’s abou5 something I don’t know much about so I wanted to see if anyone on here had thoughts about it. She is constantly thinking about food (when to eat it, what is healthy, what is too much, what is too little) and controls the thoughts by giving in and controlling her entire day around food. She don’t really know the feeling of being full. She never starved herself and always eats, but then she feels extremely guilty afterwards. Her thoughts do have to do a lot with her body image and not gaining weight but also not losing any either. Does this sound like ocd or an eating disorder?
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TW: suicidal Constantly fixated on the fact of helping people. I’m always doing compulsions like checking social medias to see if people need help etc, it’s exhausting cause I’m so sad I’m unable to help everyone. I just don’t know what to do and if I’m being entirely honest it’s making me not wanna be here anymore. I’m afraid that if i walk away from my phone for even 5 minutes someone will be in need and in danger and I want be there to help therefore it’s my fault etc. how can i cope with this? Obviously I want to help people but I wanna do it in different ways
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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