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Videos of gay people discussing knowing they were gay may end up being a great exposure exercise for you! I’m sorry you’re suffering right now. You mentioned that you’re awaiting a therapy session: is this a first appointment or ongoing? Is it with an ocd specialist? I’d bring this up with your therapist and ask to add this trigger to your hierarchy. There are a lot of great exposures you can do for this so these types of content stop being so triggering for you. I hope you are able to start feeling better soon!
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I haven’t started yet as it’s on the 21st and I just wish it would happen sooner. I wish I didn’t have these obsessive thoughts. I feel stupid and even more stupid because I love my girlfriend but I can recognize with an ex I had that I loved her so much and had ROCD although I just barely found this out. I want to learn to control my OCD because it’s ruined my life so many times before. I could never believe my self when I said I loved my Mom until she finally passed away and it killed me inside. I wish I didn’t have this disorder because it hurts me so much. I just wish I was normal. I wish I could properly. I wish I could enjoy being with my girlfriend properly and not fearing the thoughts attacking me during our intimate moments. I wish so much.
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@Lost Mexico 00 I had your theme and lost a partner because of it. I understand exactly where you’re coming from here. But I also got treatment, overcame that theme, and now it no longer effects my relationships, and I am in a different one now that has been long term. You are not abnormal. Everything you’re describing is 100% normal for people with OCD. Our brains are a little different but learning to work with them is possible and so is long term recovery. I’m so glad you’re getting help soon. In the meantime: be more kind to yourself. Take good care of yourself each day with good food, enough sleep, plenty of water, and plenty of self compassion. This isn’t easy! But you’re doing the best with what you’ve got right now. It will be okay.
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