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Imma let you in on a secret. You never *really* know if someone is the right person or not. You do your best and you enjoy what you have together. Perfectionism is never the goal in a relationship. It can’t be. It’s impossible to achieve.
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I understand - I've never felt this conflicted about previous relationships. It doesn't help that I've mostly always been pragmatic so the whole "feel it in your gut" kind of love has never worked for me.
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@Dme Well, I just think that maybe you’re best off not making decisions in the midst of ROCD. ROCD wants you to be conflicted and it wants you to feel like you have to make a decision. You don’t. If you embrace that, things will be better regardless of what happens with the relationship. Being conflicted doesn’t mean anything good or bad, and I think that’s obvious in that your previous relationships ended. You weren’t conflicted but they still weren’t right (for you or your previous partners).
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This is truly ocd latching on to you. It’s almost not real but I know the fear feels real. Do you do any type of ocd therapy. ?
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I'll have my first NOCD session later this week. I worked with a couple of therapists in the past who did CBP and both stopped just short of saying she may not be the right person for me (something my closest friends have echoed). It just makes it harder to imagine that we can enjoy a happy future together.
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You have described how I feel about my relationship to a T!!! And ours started right when covid started too. It’s frustrating because I just know he’s the one and I see myself with him for the rest of my life but I’m always constantly questioning and seeing flaws and then ruminating for hours about whether I should break up with him or not, for no good reason. I wish I had advice for you. But I do know how you feel and it sucks :(
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I really think the ocd therapy will help this.
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YES! OMG. That was like reading my very own post. My relationship started right when COVID did too. And at this moment, I’m under a lot of stress, I’m extremely negative about life, lashing out at my boyfriend, and thinking that he would be better and happier without me. Because of my anxiety and this being my first real relationship, every day is a struggle of “do I love him”, “are we too different”, “will I always feel like this or is this because of Covid and stress?” I know that it’s hard. And for me, just communicating my feelings (and ROCD diagnosis) and figuring out ways to become a better girlfriend is helping just a little bit. But I hope it goes away soon.
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I am in a relatively new relationship (around 2 months) and it has been completely virtual due to varying circumstances. I have never been in a serious relationship before and my past “exes” have never been this serious or brought up any of these feelings. About a month in I started having tons of symptoms and thoughts I figured were due to an SSRI change (i eventually went back to my original med/dose) however, it has remained quite bad since. Thoughts include: -I don’t actually like my partner, I just like the feeling of being wanted -I have crushes on other people, including my partners friends who I barely know -I don’t feel butterflies so I must be losing feelings for him -I think he’s ugly/im just not attracted to him -I’m secretly a lesbian and I’m wasting his time by being with him -a general feeling of dread, wrongness, or needing out of the relationship -not being able to believe him when he reassures me about everything -all of the above is just my genuine feelings and I’m using ocd as an excuse These are obviously crazy things to think, however one of my biggest compulsions is confession and self sabotage so I have told my partner all of these things in detail. He’s really great and patient about all of it but I can tell it weighs on him. Hes even recently expressed feeling like it’s his fault and that he wonders if it wouldn’t be this bad if I was with someone else. I feel so miserable but i feel like I’d be miserable in any relationship but im scared that’s not the truth and my ocd isn’t real. When it’s good i feel the most romantic love for him I’ve ever felt toward anyone ever. He’s an incredible person but I just feel so alone and lost on what to do. I’ve literally tried to break up with him like five times and each time we’ve ended up wanting to stay together. I’m really really scared I’ll never get better or this is simply the wrong relationship for me.
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Hey everyone, I just wanted to share something I’ve been struggling with, especially around making decisions. It’s really hard for me to feel confident in the choices I make, even when I know what the right thing is. I constantly find myself needing validation from others—whether it’s about something small or something really important. For example, at my job, I might know exactly what I’m doing and have done it right a bunch of times, but I still feel the need to double-check with someone or ask if it’s okay. It’s like this fear kicks in, and I start imagining worst-case scenarios—like what if I mess up and someone gets hurt, and then I get blamed or even end up in jail or prison. I know that sounds extreme, but these thoughts just come automatically, and they feel so real in the moment. This has been going on for maybe a year or two now. Even outside of work, the same thing happens. Like recently, I’ve been trying to figure out a gym schedule—my girlfriend wants to go with me, and I’m trying to plan the times and make it all work. But instead of just choosing what works best for me, I overthink it. I go back and forth in my head, and I ask other people what they think, even though deep down I know this is something I should be deciding for myself. It’s my life, but I still need that reassurance from others, and I don’t really know why. It’s exhausting to always doubt myself and to feel like one wrong choice could lead to something terrible. I’m trying to work through it, but I just wanted to put it out there and see if anyone else deals with this or has advice. Thanks for reading.
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Do you ever feel like you wonder if your ocd would be less if you were with someone else? Or would it be better if you were with someone else? I’m really upset because I used to be able to enjoy myself even with the anxiety and now it’s like i am just analyzing and I don’t have feelings and I’m irritated because there’s things that frustrate me about him that I don’t like and my brain says if I was with someone else I would be able to deal with those things better and that we just aren’t right for each other. And the thoughts that used to make me anxious about breaking up don’t like it’s really me that feels it. I know no relationship is perfect but it’s like my brain keeps saying with someone else I wouldn’t feel like this or I would but I’d be able to handle it better. It feels like I have to just start fresh with someone new cause the ocd got too into this to the point where I don’t feel or even know what’s real. It feels like fear and anxiety and just being so into this has just made me feel not into this anymore but idk if I’m thinking right. It’s also just warped the way I see him like I only see the negatives and my brain keeps saying you don’t feel this cause it’s wrong. And it’s depressing bc of how happy and safe I used to feel. I’m supposed to see him soon and it’s like I want to but also don’t because I feel like things have changed unless that’s just something I made in my head and cause I don’t feel the feelings I used to. But then I think I will just be this way with someone else but then my brain says otherwise and it’s so confusing. People keep telling me not to make decisions because I’m fogged but it feels like I’m not. Like my brain is manipulating me. And also like all the things I used to like I’ve somehow turned into like distaste which is so upsetting. I would like to think this is just ocd taking control and confusing me and distorting my perspective but I’m scared it’s not and that my feelings are gone. Has anyone experienced this but it was still ocd?
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