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Oh that was me last week. This week it’s about my mom. The other day something happened. Nothing inherently bad just something that triggered and paranoid me. And now I’m paranoid. I keep thinking my mom is looking at my private area when idek know if that’s true since she also looks at everything like I do. At the same time I accidentally stared at so many peoples butts and that also got me worried. And although my mom has never really done or talked about anything sexual and stuff. I get really paranoid. Lol. Do you have any “experiences” like this?
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Oh also today my mom hugged me. And it wasn’t even anything bad. But I got really paranoid like “what if she touches me inappropriately” or I keep thinking “what if she has done something while I’m asleep”
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@soup Omg. The thigh thing is what triggered me. It happened twice in a day. I don’t think it was anything bad. Once was when we were watching a movie as a family and I got up and her hand was on my lap and the backside of her hand just brushed over my part. I don’t even think she moved it to that area I think it was because I stood up and I also sit very weird. And the other time happened at church and she touched my phone. And she said “oh I thought your lap was turning into a cube”. But I got paranoid cuz what if I had an erection and she touched it thinking it was my phone. Especially since my moms side of the family is very touchy. Like her and my aunts spank our butts and play around. It’s just something they do. Out of love I believe cuz I’ve never minded it.
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@soup No yea. But the thing is i don’t know if she looking or not. Cuz her eyes sometimes go down but it can be for different reasons. You know. And they don’t stay down. It’s literally for 2 seconds max. But like I’ve also looked at her chest area and butt so many times like that on accident. And my sister. And even my dad. So it is a thing that happens I suppose. But I’m still a little paranoid. Especially since my mom has actually always been caring and a great mom for the most part. And it would hurt so much if she would do anything. Cuz I love my mom a lot.
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