i am drinking and i am scared, every time i try and have fun my brain goes straight to my intrusive thoughts to make me feel super uncomfortable and i don’t know how to deal with them. i am so scared, i would never do what my thoughts tell me and it makes me so angry and frustrated. it’s like my brain is so use to being unhappy and uncomfortable that it can’t just let me live and let me think normally. i am so sick and tired of these intrusive thoughts. :(