Hi ! I am 6 days off medication today. I stopped because i felt numb. I couldnt feel any emotion, positive or negative. Since i stopped i begun to feel very guilty for not having any positive feelings towards my family (or me thinking i dont) . The thoughts are so frequent that i barely have my normal thoughts right now. And the feeling of guilt follows me everywhere. Its almost phisically painful. Like i see my parents who struggle to raise me and helping me go through college and i keep having thoughts about them non-stop. My point is: is anyone here who stopped medication and recovered without them ? Because right now seems impossible to me. But i dont want to keep taking the pills anymore.

I havent talked to my doctor about this actually.

@Paula I would definitely ask your doctor. Ive heard of some people having the numbness feeling and switch meds and seems to help. Ive also known some people who couldn't take meds because they all made them feel the numbness. We just never know. How long have you been off of it for?

@Kls323 I took or for 4 months and i stopped 6 days ago

@Paula I'm sorry you are going through this. I just we all could get better.

@Kls323 Thank you so much! We must keep fighting right? :) i mean i had days when recovery seemed so close and days when all i could tell myself was I have to keep pushing.

@Paula Exactly!!! Every day is different. But we can do this. Thats whats great about tgis app. You know you are not alone. And we are all hear for each other.

Ohhh noo. Is it getting any better at all?

Sorry to hear that. I totally understand you. I feel terrible myself. Like worse than ever

@Kls323 Once I went back onto the tablets I cane off I started feeling a bit better again. I'm not 100% but I'm getting there. This is the first time in my life I've ever experienced what I learned was OCD, I think I may have had bouts as a child but never noticed like I do now. I feel like coming off the tablets set it off. That's why I think you should be very careful, I totally understand feeling fed up of the side effects. I think maybe have a word with your doctor as taking nothing at all might make you a lot worse x

@b2192 What tablets are you taking? I agree with you its better to try than do nothing at all. Thats great its helping you again. I never thought I had ocd (still haven't been diagnosed) but when I think back I do think it was there at a younger age as well.

@Kls323 I'm on 150mg sertraline, tempted to go up to you 200mg What were you on ?

@b2192 Nothing yet. I was prescribed Cymbalta last year but never took it. Was to nervous of side effects.

So sory to hear that. I also have depression so i can relate. Its like both ocd and depression hitting on my right now. The cause of my depression i belive its my tendency to be perfect and validated by others. Of you have depression i think you know what it can do to you. Like i see things differently, in another light. :(

I dont have much trauma from childhood. I mean i was and still am very sensitive and people around me can be a little mean and uncompassionate somethimes and if i point it out they blame me in the end for being sensitive. Sometimes they make me feel like i am a burden and i am ungrateful. And i made mistakes myself i cant lie but when i try to change and make better decisions they are like" oh look at her she is trying to be better now . You forgot when you did x and y. Look at yourself a little " . Overall, its the atmosphere around me that bothers me right now, its not a traumatic event i can remember.

@Paula Hey, being highly sensitive and feeling that can still cause trauma! It matters how it felt to you and how it feels now. Even when people didn’t know that their comments were so damaging.

@Paula I relate to a lot of what you said about being mocked for being sensitive and being kept in the past by people who won’t forget your mistakes. I’m busy for the next few hours, but I can talk more later today.