so now my ocd is attacking how i sleep and if i should sleep. if i go to sleep something bad can happen to me while i’m sleeping and won’t realize it :( i never had any trouble before until i was diagnosed. is this just me. pls any times. i feel like i’m just crazy and don’t even have ocd sometimes

pretty much like if i die in my sleep or someone in my family does or someone breaks into my house like a murderer and assa*lts me and the list just goes on. stuff like that. crazy stuff that popped into my head for no reason

@lowrainuhhh my first big memories of ocd were sleep related fears.. when i was in middle school i started a compulsion where i had to do these sleep rituals before bed i would have to be the last one to say good night i love you to my mom and dad and sister just in case ... i didnt know at the time it was a compulsion i just was like this makes me feel good im gonna do this but if my mom or sister said it back i had to say it again so i was last ... anway ive always had issues with sleep i think at that age it was the worst and that feel has been back lately minus the same compulsions ... youre not alone i think themes can be anything really

@Anonymously yesss i do the same thing. it’s so nice to knowww i’m not alone. it was like it had to be the last thing i said before bed and if i didn’t do it i couldn’t sleep and would worry. and my family would get annoyed because i would be repetitive about it and it had to be said a certain way until it felt right. and the same thing with like outlets and doors and my closets i touch , check and count them repetitively

@lowrainuhhh yes im glad you can relate too and its weird i cant tell if its sleep ocd or death ocd like something about sleep triggers my death thoughts or something or my death thoughts make me afraid of sleep i cant tell what leads to what really... its like they go hand in hand but yeah i didnt have door knob stuff but i did have work out exercises i had to do before bed and they had to be certain numbers but that wasnt for death stuff but its like i had to do it before sleep for things to be right but my rituals did eventually ware off and i found like melatonin falling asleep to tv and white noise machines helped as i got older or weed now and then and now a weighted blanket but yeah my mom and dad and sister like always just thought i was annoying in an endearing way... not sure about you but i kind of get annoyed that no one in my family like thought it was anything to worry about i guess they just were like okay this is a sweet thing shes doing i guess? they all knew i hated sleeping or had issues with it and sometimes i would sneak into my older sisters room after she fell asleep out of desperation for me to fall asleep because that made me feel safe like shes asleep so i can sleep... it was like a reassurance compulsion i guess... lol that really annoyed my sister mostly because she was in high school and i was her annoying little sister, but yeah that wore off eventually too i think i just learned at that age once people were over my habits that id just have to figure it out and just fell asleep from exhaustion and since i knew my compulsions looked weird i would like joke about my compulsions so they knew i knew it was weird ... like it was this thing i was ashamed of because i knew my friends werent having problems sleeping and it made me fee like i was developmentally broken or something? but like i havent been afraid of sleep to this degree since like tween teen times i feel like its my bodys way of letting me know im way more stressed than i realize when that obsession is back and intense