LONG POST ! “My flesh may fail , my God you never will . Give me faith to trust what you say , that you’re good and your love is greater , I’m broken inside , I give you my life “❤️ Song : Give me faith “Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.” ‭‭John‬ ‭15:4‬ ‭NLT‬‬ Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11:28‬ ‭NLT‬‬ http://bible.com/116/mat.11.28.nlt I wanted to point this out because I know that my Jehovah has done many things for me . He has protected me from falling into the lies of the devil ,from fearing the thoughts and to stop running away from God because he wants you as you are . He wants you to stay with him , without him we cannot beat this. He wants us to Go to him , lay it at his feet and fight the fight there at his feet . I have never felt more healed than when the spirit led me to give it to God during worship , I cried , at one point I screamed so much but not like screamed because of something getting out of me , but screamed out of anger , if everything that I kept in me , the feelings of being trapped by not only my mind but my sins . I let go of everything that night , and i wasn’t the only one yelling. The spirit came down and it poured in as we poured out (also to mention that this took several weeks , weeks of worship , get into reading the word again, being in fellowship , being taught by my leader, but coming to God and actually speaking to him . Every Friday I went to youth during worship he taught me something new. He let me pour out onto him so he can pour unto me . Took fighting , took prioritizing spending time with him , accepting this was affecting me , and that I needed GOD . ) He wants us to take the 1st step , and just a little step in seeking him , he will meet you there he won’t just go little by little like us but he will meet you there . Everyday take baby steps towards GOD , not the concept of him but God himself , and just like the prodigal son , your father will come running to you ❤️ If we don’t let the light in , the darkness will stay . Come to God , give him this battle , he will show you , that he is God , that those thoughts are not greater than him . He will humble you , because at the end of the day we are all still sinners , and no one is righteous . But my His love and grace we can come to him , because of his son Jesus Christ who made a way . Stay blessed , and how do you stay blessed ? You let God grow you , use you , you stay in him . He will provide, protect and give you peace . ?? I know we think “ no no how can going to God just cure me of this ?” I think I had the same idea when I was getting back to my faith that I came in with a heart of here’s my problem let me tell you how to fix it because obviously there’s only one way to fix it . But that’s not the case, God does heal , but you need to be in him , go to him , seek him , “come to me “ he said , “ seek me “ , “remain in me” and after the command he give you his promise of “and I will give you rest “ , “ and you shall find me” , “and I will remain in you “ . He’s more than willing ! He gives and gives , he gave his SON , there is nothing our father cannot do . So trust him that he can handle this mess in our heads he can handle them better than we can trust me . Bless up ?? hope this helps someone , everything I have learned is thanks to God . And everything I have up to this point is because of him including my peace of mind , and when days come where I give in to the fear of the thoughts or having them again , AGAIN I SEEK , again HE IS FAITHFUL. .. remember He loved us 1st, he chose us 1st , because we didn’t love him 1st and we didn’t choose him 1st . So glory to God I’m thankful that I can actually look back at all I have learned , I’m grateful for this post , I grateful for HIM . May this help someone .