At this point I’m so tired of feeling this way, I love my boyfriend so much that it hurts to even think the stuff I think, I sometimes think I’m not attractive to him or I don’t love him but I know I do and we are about to move in together and I just want this all to stop, can smoking along make it worse??

Thank you, what do I do if I like smoking now? Like it sometimes chills me out

Thank you so much, one more advice if you have time??

@pep13 of course :)

@Anonymous I fought with my family, and now I’m at my bf house and anixous and it now laying on him and I’m over here thinking I’m not in love with him anymore when I know I do I will always love him, but I don’t know why it laid on him when he had nothing to do with it??

@Anonymous I just wanna know if that can have an effect on why I’m freaking out the way I am

@pep13 My therapist said something that really resonated with me today. She said “sometimes people feel like they’re distant from god, and in this case you feel as if you’re distant from your boyfriend” so then she asked me “if your boyfriend is still the same person who you were in love with, then who moved, you or him?” and i answered: “me” and then she goes: “did you want to move away from him??” i said: “no” and then she said: “your mental illness is making you do things that the REAL YOU doesn’t want” ... and she’s so right!! i have to remeber that i have been diagnosed by an ocd professional with a mental illness that makes me question the things that are important to the real me. sooo we’re working from separating ocd from myself so i can get back to my true self. maybe ask yourself that same question!! i hope this helps

@Anonymous Does this mean I love my boyfriend any less?

@Anonymous pure ocd is “invisible” but it is so so real and we have to do the work to try to get back to our old selves. you could try to write a list of things that the real you wants (it’s so hard— i know, i know, i know!!!)

i don’t know whether you have ocd or not buut if you do then those are some things that could help you. don’t feel sorry about being anxious TRUST me i know the feeling

@Anonymous My mother always told me that if something effects me this much and makes me this anixous that shows you care & want them, that I have to learn the difference from my thoughts & feelings

@pep13 sounds like we’re super similar then lol. i am having a really really difficult time separating myself from my mental illness because it has hit me soo hard but i’m gonna do it and so are you

@anonymous

it’s super possible that you love him a lot then. just try to get through this episode of anxiety that you’re having pleaseee. take it all one step at a time and focus on getting through this one thing for now. i promise with all my heart that you absolutely can get through it

@Anonymous Thank you so much! You don’t understand how much you helped me!

@pep13 I am sooo glad i could help