Hi! I'm new to this app. I've been having strange things and experiences for seven years, and I am 14 years old. It was 4 months ago that I researched about it and found out was OCD. I am not sure of it yey because I haven't consulted a psychatrist yet due to quarantine. That's why I'm still bearing the same attacks all over and over. It worsens as days pass. It affects me in my studies. I would like to share what I experience. I really hope someone would help me. When I was in gradeschool, I used to: - do repetitive acts (such as blinking, touching other people) because if I don't, something bad might happen - utter repetitive phrases to make me feel better - non-stop intrusive thoughts These lessened when I stepped in 7th grade for I became busy. But it came back when I was grade 8 and made it worse during this quarantine. In the present time, I: - experience intense sexual thoughts, thoughts of harming someone, dark images that are never my intention - death and history lessons in school trigger me - I always pray and stick to my religious beliefs for I feel guilty of my unwanted thoughts - I repeat words to make me feel better - I scream frequently for a second, turn my body, or pray, as an act of stopping an intrusive thought, but I find it hard and I always end up breaking down emotionally Would someone help me? I can't afford a psychologist. Thank you so much for reading. We are stronger than what we think!

aon108

Date posted: 5y

You are strong and you can beat that little monster!!! I would suggest trying to catch ocd “hooks” (when you start doubting) . Just be mindful of your thoughts and instead of reacting and analyzing, just try and say to yourself, ok, I’m having this thought right now. Also, I reccomned Chrissie Hodges’s YouTube channel. There are so many good videos on there!! Good luck !!!!!

Metawin

Date posted: 5y

Wow, I am so happy. I didn't expect someone to care to reply on my post. I'll check his channel! Thank you so much, you don't know how you made my day :(

aon108

Date posted: 5y

@Metawin Of course!! Feel free to message me anytime you need me♥️

Meof3

Date posted: 5y

I am so sorry you are so young to have to deal with this. You are not alone. I would totally recommend seeking an ocd therapist if you can afford it. Have you told your parents about your ocd? I recommend "Freedom from ocd " by Jonathan Grayson, "the mindfulness workbook" by Jon Hershfield, " the ocd workbook" they provide guidance to treat your ocd. Look up mark Freeman on youtube too.

Metawin

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much, I would definetly check on your recommendations. Yes, I did tell my parents weeks ago but we haven't planned a consultation yet. We don't know where and who to consult, and how much it will cost, so I'm trying to fix my stuffs with myself. I am very happy to receive your reply, you made my day 🥺

Meof3

Date posted: 5y

@Metawin Nocd offers great therapy. It is $123/ session so a lot of money. Hang in there. You can get better.

Metawin

Date posted: 5y

@Sunflower 1234 Pretty costly. Can OCD be treated alone?

Meof3

Date posted: 5y

@Metawin The most effective treatment for OCD is erp. I have been doing erp on my own for 6 weeks and have made progress. I use guidance from the books I mentioned above. It is extremely hard. I think it would be easier and more effective if you work with a therapist. I couldnt find a good therapist that I can afford that is why I am doing it alone.

Meof3

Date posted: 5y

@Metawin I am 34 and have had OCD for 12 years on and off so I have a good understanding of how my ocd works which enabled me to do erp on my own.

fightonashley

Date posted: 5y

Hey! I know how it feels, especially to have these thoughts at so young. I’m 17 now, but first had OCD symptoms around 10. Just like you I had times where it was fine and it died down, and other years where it came back full force. I only told my parents and sought therapy about two months ago. Never feel like you’re alone! I thought I coud treat my OCD alone, but realized I really did need a therapist. I sought therapy through NOCD, but I understand that it can be costly. Maybe try going through your insurance provider?

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