I apologize for spamming but I feel so sick of all of this. I get aroused by the thought of having sex with a man now and I hate it, it's not just groinals. It feels like I was only against men because of feminism, which I always thought wasn't true because even if the guy was perfect I wouldn't want to be with him at all. I have talked to bisexual women who find sex with men absolutely revolting just like me. I had urges to kiss a man. I had urges to self harm via sex with men. My attraction to women is slowly disappearing once again. I feel like I want a man more than a woman and would be more fulfilled with one and while I feel like that's not true I feel like there's no denial anymore. I love women to death but I am undeniably attracted to men despite being repulsed by their physique. I have had male idols that I loved. My intuition has been wrong and let's face the facts, OCD is right and im bisexual even if I do not believe it. All evidence points to it. And there's nothing wrong with being bisexual except from my intuition calling me gay. But I know that that's not true. Even though I feel like I'm deep down gay. It is simply not true. I feel like telling myself I'm bisexual feels like lying, because not a single drop of attraction I feel towars men is genuine, ot so I think. But oh well, that's life. I honestly want to die so badly. I probably have a shit load of internalized biphobia.

I just tested myself after a long time and now I'm aroused. I honestly want to cry my eyes out. I will never ever date a man is possible, I want absolutely nothing to do with them ever, but the fact is that I'm attracted to men and it's depressing me to death. I don't want to live, it feels dishonest and I cannot stand it.

@soup I know that. I'm going full on febfem despite being in a homophobic place because it is impossible to be with them. But even calling myself a febfem feels dishonest. Saying I'm capable of ant attraction to men at all feels dishonest. That's why it is depressing. If it would feel honest I'd be okay with it.

@soup Female Exclusive Bisexual FEMale, basically bisexual women who choose or cannot act on their attraction to men.

@ｆｅｎｎａ not all the men are the same. You just gotta find the right one. I think that its not bad if you like men too, its normal. you can like whoever you want, you dont have to like bad men :) i dont consider myself a bad husband to my wife :)

@Viig1mari Dude literally screw off... Ewugh...this alone shows just how awful you are. Seriously. No. Get off of me. Wow. I-

@Viig1mari No matter the sexuality, saying you have to find the right guy/girl yet is disguisting. I don't think as a presumably straight male youd like the thought of yourself just having to find the right dick yet, so have some respect and not shove your cock to others. I do feel bad for your wife :)

@Viig1mari there’s still time to delete this