Any moms in here with POCD?

So, my OCD just started middle of July. It started with the fear of going to hell, the religious OCD. Then I had a flash back of a real event of my daughter that got twisted in my mind and made me think I was a “ p “. I have now been battling this. My daughter is 4. And I’m currently 9 weeks pregnant. When this first happened I didn’t know what was going on as I did not realize my obsessing over death and hell was a form of ocd. Then this hit me and I thought I was a pedo. Then I started googling and realized what was happening. I am still battling this and am anxious around my daughter but try to not let it show. I still treat her the same except when this first happened I tried to avoid her or was really anxious around her with intense groinal responses which made it feel so real. That is the absolute worse part of this theme. Anyways, I have not been officially diagnosed but I am seeing a therapist however I have slowly but surely unraveled my story and cried my eyes out to him in the process. I’m currently looking for a different therapist to help me overcome this. I don’t want to feel this way especially with my new baby on the way. I wish I could go back to who I was before this happened to me. Don’t let OCD scare you or keep you from having kids. My kids are the best thing to ever happen to me regardless of my ocd.

@🐝 Im 23 F and I feel you so much. Ive watched movies and tv shows about the subject before and even though its not the only thing I watched, I think OCD is bringing back the memories watching all of it as proof thar I seek it out

@🐝 I completely understand. Our OCD mind warps anything and eveything, and targets the number one thing we care about. I hate this so much and desperately wish to go back in time and slap myself and go a different route. I just want to fully enjoy my life again without fear and anxiety lingering in the back ground. I really hope therapy helps you. I think what has helped me is I still give my daughter baths, change her, lay with her, do all I can to expose my fears. I still struggle but I’ve come a long way. My hormones are also all over the place so I hope it calms down after I have the baby but I don’t have high hopes. I hope we get relief and can move on. I would rather have any other theme than this one. I feel like it has stole the most precious things from me.

@🐝 Yes we do ❤️

I agree 1000%.

How do you cope?

@Alexanderiajade I do my ERP

@kleigh21 I’m trying to find out how to do it

The struggle is real.

Thank you for this!