I get this feeling of supression of emotions where I no longer feel anxiety over the intrusive thoughts and no longer can cry and even though Im distressed I don't feel physical anxiety. It makes me question if I'm accepting that I am a P. Then I remember that trying to make yourself feel anxious on purpose will inherently make you not feel anxious! I dont speak to a psych for meds till monday but I feel like an imposter thats using OCD as an excuse. Repeating "its OCD" doesn't help and I know its because its a compulsion. I'm at a loss

It is desensitization but its inevitable with how the brain works. Repeated exposures always leads to that My suggestion is to think outside of a “good” “bad” dicotomy if that makes sense? Just be yourself and focus on your true values and what you truly want in life and trust in that, rather than focus on our anxieties and the actions we do to avoid our thoughts

The groinals are in response to your anxiety, it’s a conditioning you created and it’s ok, just let them happen even if they’re uncomfortable as you grow accepting of them they stop happening or they diminish

@Noobtruck1 I read your post earlier and You're really giving me hope

@Noobtruck1 Im going to try ssris soon do you have any insight? Without reassurance of course

@Iwashere I find that ssris kind of just made me sleepy, and in general medications will just numb you out. Will it be a worthwhile trade to you to numb all your emotions or to deal with sometimes intense anxiety and fear. I found that for myself even if it was rough we are able to outlast and overcome the extremity of our ocd But we all function differently so maybe medication can be better for you than it was me. I’d say just always monitor how you’re feeling on them and discontinue them if they don’t work for you if you go that route. I

@Noobtruck1 Yeah ive been scared about it for a while, but I have had extreme mood swings and fear I think if I had something to at least get that under control I could handle therapy better

@Iwashere As long as it is used in conjunction with therapy then it’s not a bad idea, pills don’t work the best in the long term on their own but alongside therapy they’re great