Having such a hard time right now. My OCD is spiking this year. Well since the spring really. When Covid started I was handling everything well it seemed. Then I got comfortable in the routine of stayed home and developed some complacent behaviors. My wife brought up going home to our home town which is a 9 hour drive away in May. When Covid first hit I assumed travel was off the table for this year and convinced myself that it wouldn’t happen this year. Travel is a MAJOR trigger for me. We decided to wait till later the summer. We decided maybe the fall , ie thanksgiving. Now thanksgiving weekend is upon us and my wife brought up the trip again. Actually she brought it up a month ago on a Skype call with my parents. At that time I had basically a panic attack like I haven’t had in years. My parents tried to console me and convince me it was ok to not travel right now and to concentrate on improving my health. My therapist has agreed to work with me on it. Now I’m so confused and scared and sad I don’t know what to think. The pressure of traveling has made me moody and crooked. I’m blaming my state on others. It’s causing trouble between me and my wife. She really wants to go . She doesn’t want to enable me but doesn’t want the backlash. I also don’t wanna be the guy who prevented my family from a nice trip where my daughter can see her grandparents. I’m so hurt and confused. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.