Probably has nothing to do with OCD for anyone else but for me personally it does in a way, but porn addiction is a serious thing that I've been trying to break from permanently as I'm older. Like all addictions all should be taken like drugs, alcohol and gambling. I feel pornography addictions on the other hand, aren't talked about enough since society still treats conversations of "sex" as taboo or whatever. Seriously, an addiction to porn can be scary. I really do feel like porn addiction has played a role in my OCD, since watching so much of it can skew your perspectives of what you used to view as a human being. Once your dopamine is constantly rewarded through the use of pornography, that does not make it better. It will crave more and more, meaning you will search harder and harder for the "best" video/image you want. Sex brain is also a completely real thing, and this is what happens when your brain is literally a drug that's addicted to nothing but sexual activity, with porn usually being the main indicator. At this point, you look for the most hardcore of pornography, which rarely gets to dark disastrous zones such as legitimate abuse, rape, or anything incredibly screwed up. Your mind trancsends from being flattered by the basics of pornography, only to keep looking for the darkest, shocking forms of videos that can be found. It's like locking someone in a dark room with nothing but themselves, separated from reality. It's bad enough when you already lose who you are when you're in your horny state, but that combined with an addiction is not the life I wish on ANYONE. The bottom line is, all addictions should be taken seriously and they should be brought into awareness of the mental disorders they can cause. Always maintain usages of things.

I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that

I am a girl's in my twenties. I got diagnosed with OCD last year. I have a boyfriend, sadly we're long distance right now. I've liked boys all my life. It's very difficult to sustain intimacy in a long distance relationship. Sometimes I have intimate calls with my boyfriend and it's nice. Other times, however, (and I am not proud of it) I do watch porn. I started watching porn when I was 16. I've tried to quit it many times but every couple of weeks I go back to it. And as everyone knows, one of the MANY problems with it is that your brain will always ask for more. More taboo things, more explicit things. I have a daddy kink. I've roleplayed with my boyfriend and watched porn of this kink. Now, the thing is that my brain keeps telling me that I won't orgasm unless I think of little girls being ab*sed. I've never looked for that on the internet, I never want to either. I am under EXTREME DISTRESS, because what my brain tells me feels SO REAL, and it's like my pleasure gets blocked and that contributes to me thinking my brain must be right. It wasn't like this before. I want to go back. I'm scared it will be like this forever now.

Guys I just wanted to hang up and I was looking at pornography every time I was you know do it and I would get bombarded with thoughts I'd get overwhelmed with them like my mind is just constantly thinking of and it was just so hard infuriating I was looking at like anime pornography and Isaw one of the videos that looks familiar I watched it before but I remember they had like a underage anime character and then I clicked off it as soon as I saw them and my mom said oh you clicked it just so you can see that and what makes it worse is like pretty ejaculation already leaked out so now it feels like I did it i didn't even jerk off to you all I did was see the thumbnail and then I have thoughts like saying oh well might as well already get off to it when it wasnt the content I wanted to see I seen that the thumbnail before in the sight I just ignored it was focusing on the video I wanted to see for now I feel like i have to restart everything not only with the overwhelming thoughts but also my thoughts made it feel like I was actively seeking it like if I want my thought it was like oh you knew it was going to be there but u still click it anyway oh yes I had a feeling but as soon as I saw it I clicked off I don't know I'm just overthinking I guess and also like as soon as I saw it like my mind had a urge like might aswell get off to it finish it very hard I don't even remember how I climaxed I don't even know if I did it right but now I feel like I have to restart