Probably has nothing to do with OCD for anyone else but for me personally it does in a way, but porn addiction is a serious thing that I've been trying to break from permanently as I'm older. Like all addictions all should be taken like drugs, alcohol and gambling. I feel pornography addictions on the other hand, aren't talked about enough since society still treats conversations of "sex" as taboo or whatever. Seriously, an addiction to porn can be scary. I really do feel like porn addiction has played a role in my OCD, since watching so much of it can skew your perspectives of what you used to view as a human being. Once your dopamine is constantly rewarded through the use of pornography, that does not make it better. It will crave more and more, meaning you will search harder and harder for the "best" video/image you want. Sex brain is also a completely real thing, and this is what happens when your brain is literally a drug that's addicted to nothing but sexual activity, with porn usually being the main indicator. At this point, you look for the most hardcore of pornography, which rarely gets to dark disastrous zones such as legitimate abuse, rape, or anything incredibly screwed up. Your mind trancsends from being flattered by the basics of pornography, only to keep looking for the darkest, shocking forms of videos that can be found. It's like locking someone in a dark room with nothing but themselves, separated from reality. It's bad enough when you already lose who you are when you're in your horny state, but that combined with an addiction is not the life I wish on ANYONE. The bottom line is, all addictions should be taken seriously and they should be brought into awareness of the mental disorders they can cause. Always maintain usages of things.

I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that

I am a girl's in my twenties. I got diagnosed with OCD last year. I have a boyfriend, sadly we're long distance right now. I've liked boys all my life. It's very difficult to sustain intimacy in a long distance relationship. Sometimes I have intimate calls with my boyfriend and it's nice. Other times, however, (and I am not proud of it) I do watch porn. I started watching porn when I was 16. I've tried to quit it many times but every couple of weeks I go back to it. And as everyone knows, one of the MANY problems with it is that your brain will always ask for more. More taboo things, more explicit things. I have a daddy kink. I've roleplayed with my boyfriend and watched porn of this kink. Now, the thing is that my brain keeps telling me that I won't orgasm unless I think of little girls being ab*sed. I've never looked for that on the internet, I never want to either. I am under EXTREME DISTRESS, because what my brain tells me feels SO REAL, and it's like my pleasure gets blocked and that contributes to me thinking my brain must be right. It wasn't like this before. I want to go back. I'm scared it will be like this forever now.

TW: ZOCD, porn Before my ZOCD theme started, I would never find myself asking such questions... I'd never go through my past events, every possible things that could have happened, where now I feel guilty off - it didn't really bother me as much. I do remember experiencing some other themes for a shorter amount of time, but they didn't hit me as much as this one. And you know, I wasn't exactly "happy". I was bored, tired 24/7, I wanted my life to be more exciting, I wanted a struggle, which now sounds incredibly ridiculous. And guess what? I've got it. But I didn't want this type of struggle, who the hell would? But now I think of it, it was about to happen at some point as my problems with porn since I was 11, escalated to some really questionable things (always fictional, but it still affected me a lot). The final straw was when I consumed some fucked up fanfiction this April and the immense guilt and shame hit me few days after that. I've started questioning my whole being - why did I do that? Am I what I fear? What's wrong with me? Why was I so desensitised? Am I just now discovering the real me? How can I forgive myself? I've wasted so much time and energy on that, but back then it wasn't even that much of an issue for me. I was so blind. I should have realised that sooner, but late is better than never. I've been doing better mentally than say, three weeks ago but really... I just hate how much porn took away from me. And combined with my morbid curiousity, it led me into some dark places. I can only be glad that I've never saw the real thing.