I'm lowkey afraid that I might kill myself. Yesterday, I had really bad thoughts about different ways to kill myself to the point it was hard to concentrate on my studies. I have days where I don't want to kill myself and days that I deserve to die. I just feel very hopeless about the future.

I have the same issue!! It’s like you don’t want to do then but they just keep coming. Makes you feel guilty, especially if you have a family/kids. Almost Makes you afraid to be alone! Reach out if you need to talk! We will get through this girl! I’ve learned that mild fullness is pretty effective. Or just taking deep breaths and forcing yourself to do your every day activities to get your confidence back up. You have to be confident in yourself and KNOW you will not follow through and that these are just your worries/anxieties.

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. I understand that harm intrusive thoughts can absolutely hijack your mind and make you feel like you will follow through. I do encourage you to reach out for more help if acting on these intrusive thoughts is a concern of yours. Remeber that you don’t have to believe everything you think. And if you do find yourself in an emergency know that there are hotlines and other resources available to you. I’m sure a NOCD advocate will have better advice on this, but I couldn’t keep scrolling and leave your concerns without comment. I hope that today the thoughts are less consuming 🙏🏼

I understand this completely. They are thoughts. They do not control you.