Do you guys experience intrusive thoughts coupled with intrusive feelings, that intrude in the middle of a trigger? I feel like my ocd comes in out of nowhere and the thought/feeling comes in when I’m in the middle of a certain action so when I continue to carry out the action despite the intrusive thought, I am overcome with immense guilt and distress for not stopping. It almost feels like I acted on an urge or I like anticipated something to happen, and when it does, I am upset that I didn’t do a compulsion to stop said thing from happening. Does this resonate with anyone?

I totally get it. I try not stop letting my son climb all over me though and try to play along with him, to resist the compulsion to push him away. But it sucks and the anxiety/ guilt makes me very tired.

Kind of but I’m having trouble understanding?

Like for example, I was bathing my daughter and I was washing her butt with my hand and I was doing it and I got this intrusive thought/feeling while I was doing it but I continued to do it anyways. And now I feel like I acted on an urge.

Like I almost feel like the thought motivated my action. Like I went in more aggressively because of the thought I had 😔 like I lost control or something. Do you have a similar theme?

True, just think that you did it for your daughter

Even though in reality I was *probably* just washing her normally. But because of the thought and feeling that I had, I feel like I did too much or did something that wasn’t necessary.

Or like another example is when I know she’s gonna like sit on my foot or think she might sit on my foot or something and then when she does I’m like why didn’t I move my foot? Obviously it’s because I was being a creep and wanted her to. Or like if I have it in my mind that my hand might graze somewhere, and then it does I’m like why didnt I try harder to prevent that from happening?

I have a 4 year old daughter that my pocd theme surrounds and I’m currently pregnant! I can feel this 100%.

Mine never goes away either it’s always like a hum in the background of my mind. But over the past few weeks it got really quiet with therapy and my medication, but it came back really strong last night 😔 it tries to latch on to anything and everything it can. Any bath, diaper change, etc. I get groinals too. So I can definitely relate. Do you have to wash your daughter? Or does she do that on her own?