darneilious
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CloudsClouds
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ERP and Medications (SSRI) work!! Really helped me
darneilious darneilious
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How do I do erp?
AnonymousAnonymous
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@darneilious You start by experiencing or directly exposing yourself to something that would trigger you, but the therapy is that you have to sit with it, no matter how uncomfortable. This can be used to train your brain and train your reactions to the thoughts, because OCD sufferers cannot control how they react to their thoughts, but can train themselves
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Ecuadorre Then like document how you were feeling or how you felt etc. I reccomend the ERP feature on here, just click the tools option :)
darneilious darneilious
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@Ecuadorre Thank you!
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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Give it time, I had OCD thoughts on almost any fear you can think of, couldn’t look at people or be around my family. Pacing back and forth, shivering, looking online for reassurance, nightmares, Sexuality, etc.... overall thought I was a bad guy. It is because you fear these things that make you a good person. My episode lasted for months, now it’s at a manageable level but still seeking therapy so I can maintain that and how to handle it if another one occurs. For me, an episode started with a stressful event. Prozac, Time, and family helped me.
darneilious darneilious
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It’s just so hard, it’s everyday every minute I never have a break and it sucks so much I just want it to end so bad it’s like having a backpack full of rocks on
Peace:)joy27Peace:)joy27
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Don’t feel alone, I’ve been going through almost the same thing. Hang in there. Everything is going to be okay.
Peace:)joy27Peace:)joy27
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@darneiliois try to stay away from scary movies, or anything that might cause you distress. It takes times but eventually your brain will get fed up and it will fade away. It’s important that you keep yourself busy and don’t try to avoid your family. Be around your family and spend time with them. This will prove your OCD thoughts even more incorrects than they already are. Not sure what your beliefs are. However, praying and reading scriptures from the Bible also help. The Bible speaks a lot on thoughts and the mind. Listening to motivational speakers such as Joyce Meyers also help because she talks a lot on similar things like these.
darneilious darneilious
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I really hope it passes I’m not a bad person at all :(
Peace:)joy27Peace:)joy27
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@darneilious I know your not a bad person. OCD tries to make you believe that. I’ve dealt with scary thoughts like what your having when i was a kid. It passed and sort of came back 10 years later and I’m dealing with it again now. Only this time I’m much older and know how to handle it better than when I was a kid. I know it will pass again eventually, it’s just running its course. Hanging around my family and communicating with them helps to take my mind off of the untrue ocd thoughts. Remember that you are not your thoughts.
Peace:)joy27Peace:)joy27
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@darneilious I think you should go on YouTube and listen to Joyce Meyers: moving beyond worry and anxiety. She has a lot more videos but check that one first
darneilious darneilious
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@Sunflower2456 Okay I’ll check her out
CloudsClouds
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This APP (NOCD) can set you up with a therapist to guide you. Honestly...for me...SSRIs and ERP were the treatment that worked best.
darneilious darneilious
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But I’m young and don’t have insurance:(
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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I agree it is hard. I don’t wish it on anyone, feels like the mind is trapped and slowly torturing you. I thought I was going crazy, I admitted myself voluntarily to get help, Doctors diagnosed me with either ADHD or Bipolar Never OCD. They all share similarities in symptoms but you can tell them apart if you know yourself and your past. Finally I did have OCD in the end. I put away knifes too btw. And couldn’t hold tools of fear that I would hurt someone My OCD episode started after I watched a horrible movie. Went into shock/panic mode then it started
AnonymousAnonymous
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Mine started when I was watching YouTube videos and I delved waaaaay too deep into those awful crime reports and scary stories.. been staying away from that for a while
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@Ecuadorre How long has it been going on? Mine lasted for over 3 months I think. It can vary per person though. Your solution is Time trust me. You slowly start to feel back to normal. But yeah stay away from the news, porn, and PG-13 and up films. Working out keeps the mind busy. And don’t smoke any marijuana as that can make you have another episode if you’re already in a shocked state.
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@Ecuadorre Sorry thought you were the other user, but this response can work for you too lol
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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When did yours start? How long has it been going on? Anything stressful that happened at that time?
darneilious darneilious
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Mine started when I thought I was having a heart attack, very stressful event
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@darneilious Yeah I used to dab wax, and thought it got soaked with chlorine and when I smoked it I thought I was going to die. Ambulances came, it was embarrassing to say the least.....
darneilious darneilious
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@JohnnyisMe Yep very embarrassing. When the doctor told me that I was perfectly healthy I was really embarrassed. In the past I had sexual orientation ocd
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@darneilious How long since then? Your episode might be coming to an end if it’s been 3 months but again it varies per person. The brain has a way of resetting itself at 3 months, creates newer pathways and brings in newer information
darneilious darneilious
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@JohnnyisMe It’s been like 6 months, it was that then Schizo ocd health ocd now this
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@darneilious Give it more time. Prozac helped with the intrusive never ending thoughts. Also fear is the core to OCD. I know the right solution would be to avoid these things but you need to be strong and face them. This is why Exposure and response therapy is there, to get you so tired and bored of the ideas that they won’t even affect you anymore.
darneilious darneilious
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@JohnnyisMe I’m so scared to face them :(
JohnnyisMeJohnnyisMe
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@darneilious I know and understand you but that’s the most effective therapy out there. Unless you can train your brain by yourself which I did. Try this method: Don’t resist the ideas, resisting them only causes worry then it turns into a never ending cycle. Try accepting the possibility but at the end of the day you know who you are. For example If you have Sexuality orientation OCD then tell yourself “Ok I’m gay” or with Harm OCD try “Ok I’m a bad person” accept them and don’t fight them. Then the thoughts usually go away
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