- Date posted
- 6y
- Date posted
- 6y
It’s the other way around. You won’t be able to make any progress if you or them keep following those rules. In order to progress, you have to start doing some exposures, like leaving something “dirty”, or not washing your hands after you touch something that you consider infected or dirty. If you keep washing and sterilizing everything, you’re just falling in the never ending ocd cycle. It’s hard, trust me, I know, but it’s worth it. Start with something small, sit with the anxiety, and then move on. The anxiety will eventually go away.
- Date posted
- 6y
me too ???
- Date posted
- 6y
The thing with ocd, is that it is never satisfied, maybe for a while you’ll be ok, considering you’re not gonna live with them forever, but what happens when you move out, or have a house for yourself, ocd is gonna find out a way to mess with you, sadly it always does. Besides, we can’t always control the people around us, something’s gonna trigger us eventually, that’s why we need to fight. I don’t know how old you are, or how long you’ve been dealing with ocd, I’ve had it for more than 20 years, and just found out about exposure therapy a couple of months ago, and I’ve been able to have some “ocd free” weeks for the first time in a long long time. I’ll be lying if I tell you that it has been easy, cause it is not easy at all, and some days I can’t deal with the anxiety and I end up doing my compulsions. This last couple of days have been really hard, and only because I keep feeding this ocd monster by giving into my fears and doing compulsions. Ocd is the worst. ?
- Date posted
- 6y
Right now I'm able to cope with not washing my hands or cleaning for a while and touch mostly everything that bothers me as long as it doesn't interfere with the few things I absolutely need to keep clean. The main thing that bothers me is the chance of anything touching what I want to keep clean. I feel like as long as I can prevent that from happening I'll be ok considering I don't have to live with these people for much longer but that's also hard to do and considering they aren't very supportive is probably annoying to them. I don't know if it's worth it to cause myself so much anxiety for only having to deal with this problem for a short amount of time
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you for your advice I hope all goes well for you in the future?
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- 24w
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
- Date posted
- 23w
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
- Date posted
- 19w
Got in a huge argument with my family and it had to do with my ocd (contamination ocd) and they told me they’d wish I was normal. How long do I have to fight this.
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