Jbm421
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- 4y
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
You alrite mate ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
I'm ok-ish bro. Too many thoughts even though I know it's all bullshit. But working on my computer so I'm not held down by one thought which is actually a good thing. I hate OCD
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
I can know how bullshit this whole thing is all I want but my mind will find a way to defeat me.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Im struggling like fuck. My mind somehow tells me i dont like pussy. I want to kill myself 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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Dude, never ever with that shit. That's never the answer even with this crap hanging over your head. Are you safe???
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I dont want to lose my family 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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You won't bro. Keep the faith. I'm in the same boat. It seems hopeless but that doesn't mean hope is lost.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I just cant control my thoughts. I say stuff that doesnt make sense or. Like my ideal man ... and then i get an image ive said it a few times 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
You there mate ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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I'm here. Those are intrusive thoughts. They are the bitchiest of bitches because they feel like you make them. My mind did it a few times in the past hour. Some of it turned my stomach and made me feel really scared. It never ends.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Do you say stuff in your head when getting the thoughts ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yeah. Its terrible.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
Its so confusing mate
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
I'm in hell.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
Its ok mate we will get through it. Have you still got loss of attraction ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yeah. Its really inconsistent. For days I cant feel anything for any chick but then I'll have a day where every other girl is hot. Then if a chick is hot but I still feel nothing I freak out. I just got caught up at looking at nudes pics of girls and it got me nice but the intrusive thoughts are always not far away.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I know love pussy but my mind goes eww and i get a feeling in my stomach and chest
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
The intrusive thoughts from looking the pics of the girls killed me. It was just pics of chicks that weren't exciting me as much as others. But now I'm done. I feel like a total gay dude. Fuck my life!!!
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Your not mate its just a phase this will pass
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
Don't even know why its bothering me so much. I wanked it to some sexy ass bitches after but my mind is stuck on the bullshit.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I find its just seems to be a cycle of the same kind of thoughts
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
...and it never ends
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Can i ask .. do you actually feel gay sometimes where you kind of accept it. But you know you still dont want it
Jbm421Jbm421
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I never accept it. That's just fucked. But I do get that terrible "i just turned feeling". Its terrible.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah thats horrible. Thats what we are suppose to do isnt it accept it ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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dont try and push the thoughts out ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
Yes, accept the thought as thoughts. If you push them away, they come back harder.
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
I've been at this so long bro, I don't even know if I can beat this. 😢
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
We can mate. When did yours all start ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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I've been at this for 10 years but it will kind of die out or fade into the background for s few years then come back strong. This latest episode started around July.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah mine got really bad because i think coming off my medication done me no favours. I only really had the attraction and grional responses which i was dealing with now its just blew up in my face. nearly 16 years ive been at this and its just got worse. Do you think sometimes your talking acting or even look gay ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yeah I get that. It's stupid but I get sometimes.
Jbm421Jbm421
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16 years. Wow man.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Like just now i took a picture and i look gay im sure of it. Why is my mind doing this to me ? 🙈
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
im nearly 38. Started at 22 after 1 thought 🤷♂️
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
We cant ask why? Because we won't get answers. I'm 38 now. Mine started after a depression and obsessing about other things...
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
I'm getting very upset bro. Went out for the first time today. Got triggered by a dude sure. It was mostly my mind doing the heavy lifting and a little bit of avoidance. Fine. But I've seen so many crazy hot women since I've been out. It makes me mad.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What happened what were your thoughts ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
Anger. Plus now in being triggered by a gay dude looking at me. Uh....
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
Just the idea of even having any thought anywhere near this feels like shit. I'd rather spill hot coffee on my balls! Id rather be shot in the balls than having these thoughts much less have them come true.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Remember mate its ok to find the same sex attractive. I freak out still when i see an attractive guy my anxiety goes up. I had to go back a couple of times to check and try and stop the thoughts. Guess thats the checking ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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i would rather eat dog shit than get with i guy i know how you feel. But of course your mind trys to tell you different 🤷♂️
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
Of course. When it's like this the mind is an asshole. Like right now, I'm watching some NBA archive commentary and my mind is trying to trigger to old dudes. Smfh... ...I'm gonna be good though. Celebrating my brother's beat tonight.
Jbm421Jbm421
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- 4y
@Jbm421 *Bday
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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- 4y
Ok mate have a good one
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