i have this weird feeling of that i’m like not deserving of anything like i don’t deserve to be around anyone and i don’t deserve to do anything that i like its a really miserable feeling and i’m scared that it’s real that i actually should feel this way, i have done some bad things throughout my life but i don’t think i’m a bad person i really regret them now :( is this ocd ?

Hi, cherry Cake I also have these feelings all the time. I don't know if is OCD. I also did a lot of mistakes in my life, we all do, we are just humans after all. I was also always wondering if this is a symptom of OCD or the aftermath OCD has on us. Whatever happens in my life I have the tendency to blame myself and doubt him even on situations that were clearly not my fault. So the way I try to see it is that even if is OCD and is attacking me again in my lows making me feel like a bad person, or even if because of all these bad thoughts of OCD I started to feel like a bad a person and I am low in psychology the result is the same, I just feel like I don't deserve nothing good in my life and that I am a bad person. I am not an expert but what I am trying to say is that even if this is an OCD symptom or just an aftermath of low psychology I just treat it like a symptom again, like something that is not mine, and I try to not believe it. Deep inside I know that we all make mistakes, we all messed up here and there and that every human being deserves forgiveness and a change to be happy, even if this person it's sometimes our own self. In these low times I learn through time to get more close to myself, to support him and to hug him more rather to attack him. It's like I have this condition attacking me all the time, trying to make me believe that I am a bad person. And I feel that I have two choices to either believe it and make this condition even worse or to try to accept that I suffer from something that is forcing to feel like this and to try to fight back. And I usually don't fight back with reaction but with acceptance, llke for example that is OK if I did some mistakes, like is OK to not be the best version of my self right now, and like is OK to trying to love myself even of my darkest times. I separate my self from the condition and when I do this I see how much myself was suffering all this time and instead of supporting him I was attacking him. It's like you have a good friend suffering from OCD, depression or something else, when you are outside of the condition you will tell him that is just the condition, you will support him, you will tell him that is OK to feel like this, that his not a bad person a sederal. This best friend is your own self right now, so try to be a good friend self to yourself and the worst enemy. Sorry for the long writing sometimes I also feel like I need to hear these words.

Hi again sorry for the delay. I hope to feel little better. I truly believe that with small steps of self love, acceptance and forgiveness we can get to a brighter side. It's just need patience and little will, and sometimes some work at least on the self esteem part. For the OCD I noticed that you need to be little more informed, better I you have an expert's support, it's a tricky condition and it gets easier when you understand how it works, and how it can jump from one theme to another. It takes time, sometimes difficult times but I am sure you will get there. It's always light after every tunnel. So hung in there, if you don't see a therapist, I thinks it will be a good idea to think about it. I recovered once from OCD at least for a few years, so I now that is possible to do it. Now is back with a new theme, took me sometime to understand it, but I am getting there, I have my bad days but I also have good ones. So I wish the same for everyone. I once believed that OCD was the worst thing that happened to me, but with time I realize it also helped me to understand what really matters in life, to face my worst fears and how to truly love my self. No with its return I am no qiute there yet but I hope with small steps, will and patience I can find my self again. I wish you all the best and I wish tha

Sorry I share it by mistake :) and I with that you will start to treat yourself like you will treat one of your best friends. It's not so easy as it sounds at the beginning but when you start to practice it, when you understand that we are all humans, that we all made mistakes, that is OK sometimes do not feel OK, and to give some slack to yourself then everything gets little less heavier and it's more easy to work on things you want to change.