I’m really sad I’ve been going through this since July and Im Sad all the time, I feel like this will never leave. Apperently it doesn’t. Hocd kills me and rocd just fuels it. My rocd makes me think I have feelings for my ex and still want to be with other guys but then my hocd makes me think I don’t want to kiss my boyfriend and that I hate it and want to be with girls and makes my thoughts go bad. I still complus everyday but just try ignore it, it’s still always in the back of my head and I’m really upset. It’s like I don’t cry and get emotional in a situation with my boyfriend and I freak out. Or I then freak out that I’m using him for emotional support. I’m really just done with this, I feel like I have no where to go anymore. So much people on this also say ocd never leaves them. It’s just so scary because hocd is my first proper ocd theme Thats lasted this long and now rocd. I feel like I just don’t have anything left in me or to live for.