anyone w hocd just feel like their desire to the opposite sex is gonna go away and be replaced by same sex attraction one day and to make sure it doesn’t happen is to reassure yourself that u like the opposite sex and always have . idk . today’s been a rough day :/

yes! within the past year I have nearly convinced myself (she) that I am attracted to females. I have always dated men and I love my current boyfriend very much, but lately seem to be perseverating over being attracted to women

Not anymore but I remember a few years ago when I was a senior year of high school I had a long term bf and we did drugs together and got sober together. I loved him and was also very codependent which definitely heightened my ocd ESPECIALLY coming off drugs. So we would go to the gym every night and work out then we would go in the sauna. This super weird chick came up to us and just kept talking to me and like ignoring my bf. So towards the end of being in the suana she said something really odd I forgot what it was exactly but she said something along the lines of her being a lesbian and finding me attractive and I OBSESSED over it . My bf laughed and shrugged it off but I literally thought about it all the times especially when I was in my boyfriends presence. I would think of her trying to rape me or I wOuld have intrusive thoughts of me masturbating to her like I wouldn’t even masterbate and I enjoyed having sex with my boyfriend but I would have obsessive thoughts of me like cheating on my boyfriend with her. All types of weird shit that like really disturbed me. Eventually it went away and I remember being like “ I know what this is . This is intrusive thoughts and ocd” and I knew that the best thing to do was not enable these thoughts by telling my boyfriend I was having these thoughts because number one - he would not understand what I would be trying to explain and number two- I feel as if I make these thoughts even more real then they already are when I talk about them especially when I talk about them with someone who is involved in the intrusive thoughts such as my bf At the time. Not totAlly Sure now if it’s safe to ignore certain intrusive thoughts . I think it depends on what it is but I vividly remember dealing with that and I hope you can relate and find some type of relief wether it be relief from these thoughts or relief in knowing YOU ARE NOT ALONE ❤️❤️❤️ and if your like me you know our compulsions come and go and change and warp and do all sorts of weird shit so think of this as a very temporary feeling

I feel like attraction and actually being in a relationship with someone who you love in many ways is very different. Im a girl. I’m straight and I’m in love with my boyfriend . But I also find some women very attractive and find myself having off fantasies

^ do you get anxiety about having those fantasies? I don’t necessarily have fantasies, but at times some women will pop into my mind although it doesn’t bother me because I just think they’re attractive, not that I would want to be with them. I’m very happy and in love with my boyfriend currently

thank you so much :)