Two nights in a row now, but ever since I had this fear, I’ve been having more and more lesbian sex dreams. But a couple of times it’s felt like I had the choice to not do it, but did it anyway because I just wanted it that bad. Like I actively chose to initiate sex in a dream that otherwise wouldn’t have it, as if I were lucid. Then right when the actual sex stuff starts happening I IMMEDIATELY wake up and go, what the fuck? I literally dreamt about POSTING IM THIS FORUM AND ASKING WHY I GENUINELY FIND WOMEN SO SEXY and not men. I’m tired. It’s making me think I’m actually gay. It doesn’t help that I think about the fact that my first ever wet dreams were gay, even when I was too young to understand sex they manifested as just boobs everywhere. I’ve had more lesbian sex dreams than straight, although I definitely wake up happier and feeling more fulfilled from the straight ones. The lesbian ones always kinda made me feel weirded out, but back then I was able to forget about it.

Villandi

Date posted: 5y

For some reason I think I’m gay because of the sheer volume of lesbian - straight dreams I’ve had in my life. As if I don’t also have horrible sex dreams about my mother and other relatives.

Villandi

Date posted: 5y

Because clearly these dreams mean nothing since I DO NOT want sex with my mother or other family members

Villandi

Date posted: 5y

It’s so hard when all you want is for someone to relate and validate your experience

pluralines

Date posted: 5y

there are many reasons why our bodies react to various images of sexual nature. i understand that ocd makes you feel and urgency to know exactly what these reactions mean, but in this ocd pursuit, it tires you out. it is the cycle that is ocd. you’re strong enough to face the uncertainty head on because you’ve been strong.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

My first sexual ideas had to do with boobs. I mean I wasn’t doing something to them, but they’re seen as sexy pretty unanimously and as a woman I felt when I had boobs that meant sex

holley

Date posted: 5y

do you fantasize about lesbian stuff?? because the intrusive thoughts have crept into my fantasies and i’m able to cum to them :/

Villandi

Date posted: 5y

I used to all the time. Watched lesbian porn and all. I’ve stopped since HOCD hit because I’m scared it’ll be proof that I’m gay. Sometimes I get images of women when I’m masturbating to fantasies of men.

holley

Date posted: 5y

@Villandi i always have those images. and i didn’t have these “fantasies” until ocd. i only used to watch lesbian porn and cum and that was it. and then after i stopped watching lesbian porn i had to fantasize and i’ve been able to think of my bf and stuff and cum but still have those images and remember les porn scenes and cum to that or try to push out fantasies of me doing things with girls

sarahmamabea...

Date posted: 5y

I had almost same thing happen except incest. Remember, people in general get turned on when they aren’t supposed to be doing something. That’s why there are so many people who watch taboo porn. It doesn’t mean you actually want to do it. When you can’t have something since you’re fighting so hard against those thoughts, it makes you want to just think it. If you don’t want them to happen you don’t want them to happen. Simple as that 💕 we get turned on by all sorts of things and that’s ok. Just the act of checking to see if we are turned on turns you on. That doesn’t mean anything.

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