Hi everyone, I'm currently severely struggling at the moment. my main theme for OCD has always been harm and is centred around my little girl. I have become so bad that I now feel like I want the intrusive thoughts that I get and that I'm am absolute psychopath that will hurt someone eventually. I feel like I cant feel any emotion towards anything which only feeds my beliefs that I'm a terrible person who wants to harm people. I also has thoughts like "why don't I want to kill myself", surely if it was OCD I would want to kill myself. I have suffered since being little and I'm now 31 and recently come off lexapro. please please if anyone has any advice for me or has experienced this I would be so grateful.

Hey Kimberley! I know how you feel. I’ve had OCD without knowing until my harm OCD went haywire literally out of nowhere, like a light switch back in August. It’s aimed at my son, who is 4. Im currently pregnant too which makes it even worse for me, I’m terrified I’ll have thoughts about my newborn too. I’ve been seeing a NOCD therapist and have seen a lot of improvement. I guess what has helped me is acceptance. Accepting that I have OCD, accepting that everyone has these thoughts, but us w OCD see actual threat in them. I do still have bad days, like yesterday and today. It’s hard to see it for what it is when you’re in a state of anxiety. But you’re not alone! You, me, and many others are in the same boat. Bad days won’t last forever! We’ve got this! Keep pushing. :)

Do you ever thinking that you want to do it? I know that sounds crazy.