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- 4y
Me too, did 2 mistakes like yours. Only thing is that Idk what was my intention, not to harm for sure, but sometimes I think I should die because of it.
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I feel as long as you've learned from the mistake and no one was harmed just as you said you didn't want anyone to be, I think it's good enough to move on from.
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@Valentino Yeah. Its horrible. Trying to live with this sometimes is terrible.
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@Valentino Honestly. I feel more scarred with my guilt more then anything with some of the things I've found online and I can't help but feel it was my fault for finding those things accidentally. The other mistake I'm starting to not feel so bad for though
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@Hoping for the best Idk, living with these mistakes depends on my mood. On one hand I could feel really happy and not let it bother me and I think much more clearly about the mistakes and see them for what they really are but other times when I'm not feeling it I feel so horribly about it even with the context.
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@Valentino Yeah the internet is a blessing and a curse. If I could take back the bad things I had to learn about the internet within my time I would do it in a heartbeat. Even on the safest of sites you could find pretty scary things that go against your will pretty easily. I hate that it even happened to begin with but I'm trying to get over it
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@Valentino I just wish I was taught these things with the talk instead of trying to figure out everything by myself.
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@Valentino Yeah, probably the same for me. I'm deep into the topic of OCD and it has never been this bad. Before it was just about my past mistakes but now it's escalated into a present mistake I have now.
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@Valentino I'll be turning 19 soon. It's good that you haven't done as much as me because compulsions are smaller for you. My only POCD is not so much tied with urges against young children because I know I would never want to see kids be placed into something that isn't meant for them to understand, but I'm more concerned of how much my addiction to porn is messing me up in a way. What sucks is that with all the porn I've watched, there were times I was tricked into clicking on a video that was not meant to be seen or involved me thinking that the video was genuine but ended up not
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@Valentino For real, it's a goddamn poison. I have it all blocked so I don't see it anymore but I still have relapses on YouTube. I'm trying to stop completely
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@Valentino Yeah, not always a good thing. Hopefully I'll be able to get over all of this soon
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@Valentino Hey guys youre awake? I just woke up right now and started obsessing again over my real event. Like what if I dont know my intent? What if was bad?
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@Hoping for the best Yeah I'm here. Trying not to think about my mistakes too much. It's good seeing you two, but I hate to give you reassurance.
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@BigGip09 I understand. Is just that well its hard
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@Hoping for the best It is hard. It really is. Your mind thinks of all these different outcomes that try to confirm something you don't want it to. It makes it hard to even see what's right and what's wrong at all.
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@Valentino hey guys how are you doing?
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- 24w
hello everybody! 🔞 last saturday i did something i shouldn't have done, and i even posted about it here, but no one responded to my post (it's okay, i completely understand). to inform you, since i deleted the post: i consumed erotic literature where two 14 year old children had a relationship (☠️), on wattpad. and i consumed this theme to see if i was really attracted to it..i think. i'm unsure about it, but i know i didn't feel anything consuming it. i was feeling extremely anxious and felt extremely bad the next day, and i only got better when i talked to my girlfriend and an online friend. i'm still feeling bad, i know i shouldn't have done it and whenever i'm feeling genuinely good, it comes back to haunt me.. i'm worried because i'm not feeling enough guilt or remorse, idk.. i feel bad and i regret it, and i can't stand going through this problem anymore.. i was in therapy a few months ago, but i stopped for financial reasons and my psychologist doesn't see me virtually anymore. it's been difficult.. just a vent.
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- 20w
I made a post earlier today about my past and things that happened and maybe I didn’t phrase it really in the best way haha :’)) so I’ll try and make it shorter. February has been complicated for me and recently. First my mental health was bad because of studies but I had this thought regarding my past that was a little tempting and led me to spiral on about my past, I gave into it and that really took me for a whole spin. I’ve started to open up about things that I never thought I would talk about and even slowly opening up to my therapist. These things happened in childhood and I mimicked actions I saw at a young age ( despite these things happening, it was only just one side of my childhood ) and even though it’s still not easy for me to deal with it, I often have the urge to confess and fear that it’s my intuition telling me to confess and if I don’t, something bad is going to happen or I’m a bad person. I’ve talked about my story to someone in a detailed way and to my therapist briefly and she understood and treated me with kindness but these thoughts still linger. Sometimes it gets to a point where I have the thought briefly telling me negative things but it doesn’t focus on the good things that happened and how I’ve learned and not repeated the action. It just focuses on the bad and when I just pause , it goes silent and keeps quiet, I realise that it’s all just thoughts.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 16w
I just wanted to apologize for my last post, it was very angry and fearful, and I don’t think it was a great reflection of myself. I’ll try to avoid posting anything nearly as frantic or emotional again! Seemed like a lot of people avoided commenting on it, so I’ll avoid doing that again. Keep fighting your OCD guys!
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