Hey everyone, I got diagnosed with hocd over a month ago, my first episode of hocd thoughts started August 23rd and I just got into a relationship with a girl who I crushed on the entire summer. I was watching a tv show that night that had a gay scene in it and I suddenly started questioning if I was gay. That question has gotten so deep that I feel like I am gay now. Every time I am with my girlfriend I feel like I need to break up with her because I am gay now. Whenever I’m with her my thoughts are saying to me “break up with her, you will like it”, “I don’t deserve her”, “you never actually cared about her”. Also I feel like I get annoyed with her now and I’m finding all of her flaws and stuff I don’t like about her, before this I never had any of these thoughts and I liked her so much. These thoughts feel so real that I’m worried I actually will break up with her. But I don’t have any reason too. I get really scared because I feel like I’m going to lose her and I have the fear that I end up being gay in the end and it completely tears her apart. Sorry for it being so long.