I'm 15.I have sexual orientation and hocd.My life is going badly right now. I wonder what will happen in the future if my life goes on like this now.i am scared . Please tell me what to do.

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@annonymous Hey.can I ask you that what happened to you in January and february

@Lele Because my life has been going terribly since January

@annonymous Yeah.What has happened to me in the past that I don't want to form a friend or boyfriend relationship with the boys. How long do I have to do this.So I made a friend who was a boy. I met him in January.i told him we would be friends.he said"ok,we will be close friends".the way we were talking I thought he is great friend ever I had.but in fabruary I doubted the way he was joking.i asked him he said he want relationship with me.i was shocked.I even don't have friends.i can't share my feelings that what happened to me in the past.i can't tell my parents.there was a hope I can share my feelings but now I can't.I'm worried about my future too. I lost my best friend when I was 13 because of me.feel very guikty.then I lost one more friend.feel guilty to hurt them. With this thoughts I spend whole quarantine.feel like I'm a bad daughter, friend and sibling And I will And I will keep my husband sad.i tried to start anew but I'm failing . I am also fealing depressed and never be happy.sometime that thoughts go away but they came back.

@Lele So how is your life going now?

@annonymous I tried but I failed everytime

@annonymous I can't tell my parents that I have ocd

@annonymous Even I didn't tell anyone that I have ocd

@annonymous I had searched about it on Google and international ocd foundation says that"If you have OCD, you don't have to disclose your condition to anyone, even family members. It's your experience, your life. But if you have people in your life you trust and know to love and support you, letting them in, even just partially in, can have a positive ripple effect on everyone involved." But I don' have a person i cat talk.I thought i could tell that friend but now I can't.

@annonymous We can also talk about what you want to talk about.and also things that u want share

@annonymous You mean that boy?

@Emmy Who wanted to have a relationship with me.

@annonymous Yeah sure!

We can talk on this tread.i will like to

He will absolutely help me

@Emmy But we didn't talk about 2 months

@Emmy And he is my neighbor sister's best brother

@annonymous Hey.you helped.if wanna share something plz do it.

@annonymous Thnk

@annonymous Tell me about your problems may be I can help you.

@annonymous You know I just feel like you.i am thinking that I will never be happy.my ocd will stay forever with me.

@annonymous You know I don't want life like that.i don't want to be sad my whole life. There is no excitement, no joy.we people with ocd got happiness just for while and then it disappears